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2010-09-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm still around waiting for a reply...

2010-07-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

累了。。。
完了。。。
多久的事了。。。
我也不知道。。。
没办法知道。。。
也没力气去知道了。。。
为何这样折磨自己呢？
带着希望地在等待一个不知道存在不存在的东西？
真的好累好累。。。
我不该只懂得配合，你习惯短暂的温热。。。
我越来越像贝壳，怕心被人触碰。。。
我的心真的受伤了。。。

2010-07-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

Finally had my haircut today. FINALLY.
watching the blurry image of black bobs of hair dropping down, my head feels lighter.
ALOT lighter. haha.
no more irritation in the eyes n ears le... =D
last week! =D

2010-07-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

张智成 may i love you

我要如何才能拥抱你呢
紧紧抱着我吻你你附和
从朋友晋升情人角色
从苦涩转变成了快乐

把钥匙交给了你
你却转身将我囚禁
在一扇叫做等待的门里

你试过那么多心的锁
怎么就不来开启我的爱情

love you, love you, may i love you?
tell me what to do

才能让你不孤单我不孤独一起找幸福
当这个世界一步一步华丽到荒芜
请放心我还是你的信徒

love you, love you, may i love you?
tell me you love me too

我可以继续付出付出就够我满足
不相信爱情对我永远(的)残酷
我奢望时间会为我祝福

看着我这样投入
难道你都没有感触
不接受至少给我些帮助
就说你感动到想哭
多少能减轻一点我的痛苦

2010-07-07T21:06:00.002+08:00

I nearly got killed by FREDDY today! it was a really close escape...
okay, may not get killed but will at least serious head injury or disfigure bah...

work will get more and more tiring very soon... school starting soon... will i have time?

2010-07-04T20:35:00.002+08:00

HELLO! VERY LONG TIME NO SEE!!

haha. 心血来操 suddenly feel like blogging. but i don't know if there'll be more posts after this one.

anyway finally watched TOY STORY 3 with the gang. it's been out for so long and i've been wanting to catch it for even longer, finally did it today. it's really a childhood movie to me. woody and buzz lightyear. i've even took part in some lucky draw before when i'm like still a small boy and gotten a toy story pencil case with a set of stationary. =) alot of memories. really interesting the way they look at things from another point of view. well i was quite sad watching the movie haha. people say letting go may be better. but the thing is, letting go may be better on your side, how about the other side? will the other side be better off if one let go? if not why let go?

i've been thinking about my old toys i've had when i was a kid after watching the movie. i've had quite a limited number of toys to play with when i was a kid due to various reasons. money, space etc. sometimes i have to even play barbie dolls together with my sisters. that was like =.=" haha. it's a experience i'm not afraid to share. it's not like i want to play but what can i do with only 2 sisters to play with? most of my toys were from happy meals or hand downs (from somewhere). those that i miss are the ultraman, red ranger and the ninja turtle. although the ultraman was like very limited movable parts, it's the only one i got overseas (malaysia). the ninja turtle was fun cause it comes with a motorcycle which can transform into something like a glider, and it was a birthday gift from my aunt bought at YOHAN (who still remember this place?). and i guess it somehow spark my interest in how things work. and lastly, the red ranger which i tresure the most cause it was bought by my beloved mum. how i miss them. =( all my toys were like handed down to my younger cousins. and i remember how sad it was. it was even worse to see them being tortured.

i would have definitely want more toys to play with when i was a kid. but i can only make do with the toys r'us stall in northpoint that time. it was a heaven to me. i can spend hours inside just admoring the toys. that's why till now when i see toys r'us i would still be tempted to enter. they have like everything i wanted there. lol. the transformers, cars (especially those remote controlled ones), power rangers and much much more. when people ask me why i choose mechanical engineering and i answered interest, most will give me the o.O look. it's something which i've always been interested in since young. i've even took apart some stuff (eg. clock) at home and put them back together in working condition. it's been sparked off by these toys which i think has been deem un-fun. just take a look around. what are kids holding in their hands nowadays? PSPs, DSs, handphones etc. how about at home? PS3, XBox 360, Wii. the world has changed so much. how i wish it could go back to the past and never change, and i'll never grow up. miss the days.

what toys do/did you play with?

2009-10-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

my legs are ACHING!!!
well... today's physio session lasted a grand total of 2.5hours!!!
wao... my legs took a serious beating today but it felt great...
didn't feel any pressure at all to rush...
just took my time to complete all the things...
though wasted the opportunity to get something i had an eye for...
what'z more disturbing to me is that there is something still in my bag...
our name was written 1st...

2009-10-12T19:19:00.002+08:00

something is wrong with me...
even after that long stretch of work, i still don't feel happy...
i'm not sure why...
but i guess it's because the "heck care" attitude towards NS is spilling over to everywhere in my life...
not what i wanted... but...

anyway, had a fun evening at night safari on saturday...
even though i had to pay a grand total of $35 to feel sleepy and sweaty for the halloween special, i still think it is quite worth it watching others getting scared by fellow humans...
actually some of their costumes are quite nice, but it is totally not scary enough...
that point aside, i think they should stop the halloween thing as it is definitely causing a disturbance to the animals... (no not by those people in costumes but by people screaming like there's no tomorrow...)
poor animals, no wonder that elephant attacked it's keeper a few years back...

anyway the night safari trip make me recall a trip to the zoo sometime back...
how did things become like this?
is it my fault?
i've been asking myself this question but there's no answer till now...
yes i'm talking about a dear friend, one of my closer one...
i'm unsure of how things come to a situation like this...
i don't know what to do too...
do i just let a close friend go like this, and become just some passer-by in my life?
it's been ages since we saw each other (face to face)...
and yet another oppotunity pass by like that?
yes i know i'm partly at fault for what happened last week...
and i DO KNOW of your limitations...
but what happened isn't what you think happened...
yes you do have a right to be disappointed of how things went...
but i HATE false accusation of things about me...
i was asked what time i could make it...
well, no i do not have any ability to help me look into the future...
but what i have is past experiences...
since the last few physio session lasted 1hr...
i was confident of making it based on the the estimated travelling time needed...
there was like nearly half hour of buffer time too...
but who knows... it didn't end as soon as i expected...
if not i would have reached there earlier and waited instead of you...
i didn't expect it to be different, well maybe that day was meant to be different...
i don' t know...
i'm just utterly disappointed with what you have said...
i don't know how low my importance ranking has dropped...
maybe i'm just a passer-by to you now...
though you have always been fairly highly important to me...
i don't know what to do seriously...
are we still friends?
or have we become strangers?
before i got the answer, i just want to say thank you for being there for me, and sorry for all my wrong doings...
yes, all from my heart...

2009-09-15T17:52:00.002+08:00

Hello Singapore! =D
been away from singapore for the past 15days...
only my 3rd & 4th time flying... (to & fro thailand)
didn't touch facebook at all for 15 days!!!
surprisingly i didn't have any withdrawal symptoms... haha...

it was a tiring trip for me...
flew off after midnight... reach very early morning...
waited for sometime at the airport for the long bus journey down to the base camp...
didn't really sleep much on the long bus ride as i've got a very inconsiderate NSmen sleeping very soundly beside me till keep on knocking me with his head... =.="
food wasn't very in line with my tastebuds...
cookhouse food was... well at least my expectations wasn't high at all...
canteen food wasn't up to the standard...
the wanton noodle was very solid... (solid = hard)
and they love pepper alot...
food don't taste very good is still alright, but hygine not in place is unacceptable...
i don't understand why people love to eat from the famous jenny stall...
one time i found a strand of hair and on another occasion i found a small black rice beetle crawling out of my rice... yes it is still alive, only movement is slowed... XP
oh and the pineapple from the pineapple rice is black... not the burnt black but the rotting black...
the 9 days outfield made me feel so small...
i am like a gigantic targetboard for the tons of mosquitoes and they make my arm look like it has gone through arty shelling...
i also had my chance to finally fire the howitzer...
now i feel more like i'm from the artillery... =D
last day was R&R... (is it rest & recreation or rest & relax or what?)
if given a choice to choose i would have rather rotted in camp...
took a long bus journey to floating market...
and guess what, only 30 minutes to spend there?
met up with the rest and went in... walked one round and came out...
didn't have the time to even shop...
wanted to take photos but it was like so squeezy i don't even feel like taking photos already...
after that short walk which i presume is to let our blood flow, we took a long bus ride to "whale hotel" for lunch, which was like "is this hotel food"???
after lunch it was yet another long bus ride to "future park"...
that's the name of a shopping mall...
walked around eat a little play arcade a little...
wanted to buy things but there's really nothing for me to buy... =(
after that is the trip to the airport for the long wait for our flight...
and finally reached back in singapore at around 1am... =D

had a strange dream today...
dreamt that i'll be posted out...
feels very real...
maybe it's the events that happened in thailand...
=(

2009-08-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

oh gr8...
something wrong with dunno what thing...
blogger doesn't seem to load properly...
oh well...

really tired...
when will it finally end?
the sense of sastification is not there already...
maybe numb already?

tinking of asking for off after next tue medical appt and oso on wed...
FYI, i nvr had any off system...
but chances are if i ask i'll get it...
prob is wat do i do wif the off?
rot @ home? i seriously dunno...
well...

i seriously need help...
=(

2009-08-03T16:21:00.003+08:00

been almost a month since my last update...
well... seems like no one bother oso...

nothing much HAPPY to update for the past month...
too much UNHAPPY stuff i dunno where to start...

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been feeling lonely...
like no one to tok to...
no one to ask out...
or should i say everyone too bz to be asked out...

it'z already august...
soon i'll be flying off to thailand...
last wk of aug should be working still...
yes the whole wk...
still got guard in the middle of the month...
and i'm still spending my wknds rotting @ home...
WHY?

when i stepped out of Alexandra Hospital last fri... (oh who actually know i had a medical appointment there last fri)
i wanted to call somebody, in fact anybody, but i dunno who to call...
so in the end i had to sadded-ly go to my relative's funeral... (oh who knows again)

i got off this wednesday afternoon...
i guess it's goin to be the same again...
rotting @ home...

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6 months 6 days left to ORD...

2009-07-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

WHY?
i've been thinking alot recently...
is it because i finally have some free time?
well not really... i still got work which i have not done...
just postponing my work cause not in the mood to do...
the past few weeks had been tiring... shagged...
the sudden breathing space i created for myself forcedfully...
well... i think the sudden rush of oxygen to my dying brain seem to make it work in overdrive mode suddenly...
i want to pen down my thoughts here...
but i feel i better not do so...
fear the repercussions... from all directions to anyone... so it's better to leave it in my mind for now...

i can only breathe so much for now...
sometimes it's really saffocating... really want to call for help... but all i can manage are gasps...
who can hear me?
coming few weeks will be like being trapped in a vaccum...
next 3 weeks will have 3 groups of people coming in 3 consecutive weeks...
and with less than a week of rest...
2 groups of people will come in for 2 weeks concurrently...
and with less than 1 week of rest (yes yet again)...
the wednesday... which happens to fall on 26th august...
another group of people will come in and soon will be overseas on that sunday...
and that will last for 2 weeks...

that is my schedule till sep... gr8?
i wont even have time to rest... much less celebrate my birthday...
why? i cant seem to find the full ans to the situation i'm in...
well... if you guys catch my hint... book me in advance cause i've really got not much time...
why am i doing all these???
i shall go back into my thoughts to find an answer...

do i really look unhappy?
no i won't deny the fact that i'm unhappy...
but i've always tried to hide my unhappiness, sadness, disappointment behind my mask...
i don't wish to affect the people around me...
but somehow...
it's not working...
is it cause the mask is broken?
or is my hand too tired to even put on the mask?
or is it that i don't even bother anymore?
help......

2009-06-16T21:25:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dearest Fish!!! =D
生日快乐！！！

我还记得，好几年前的一个夜晚。
在广播听到了你的一首情歌，就被你暖暖的，纯真的歌声打动了。
你的歌声是我最想环游的世界，让我夜夜夜夜不想睡。
我开心时，悲伤时，都是你在陪伴着我。
我好崇拜你，你知多少？
你是我生命中不可承受的轻。
虽然我的心声你听不到，不过我还是想鼓起勇气说我喜欢你。
如今我们中间出现了第三者（T先生），我真的好想失意。
可惜不是你，因为当我读到你和他之间满满的都是爱，是我会呼吸的痛。
如果有一天，如果能在一起。。。
不是我不明白，只是因为还是会。
我都知道，我已接受事实，爱情没有如果，你也找到属于你的他，无条件为你的他。
为我好，给未来的自己，我们就到这。
可是爱你不是两三天，我也只能说对不起我爱你。
只要准备好明天的微笑，用力抱着你所唱的情歌，我知道我是幸福的。
Ces't la vie...

omy... how many fish song titles have i used? =D
sorry my chi is kinda chui... haha...
this post is dedicated to my fish! =D
静茹我爱你！！！=D

2009-06-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

oh gr8...
still have tons of things to do...
adding on everyday...
n i've got only one pair of hands this wk...
n i even kena attacked by a snake at the staircase near my office...
n now... more den 1 month after my duty...
tell me the stupid idiotic trainees didnt scan for the dinner!!!
damn it la!!!
n now i'll haf to write statement...
but i've forgotten ALOT of things liao...
how to give account of wat exactly happen?
guess i'll just haf to pay up bah...
DAMN IT!!!
haiz... =(

2009-06-02T20:14:00.002+08:00

shagged... ya... very fan i noe i kp repeating it...
but does anyone hear it?
8 more months... bear with it...
i noe many ppl wondering...
admin spec? tot is relac in air con office everyday can play internet?
YA RITE...
depends on where...
all got pros n cons la...
but most impt is the ppl u r working with...
well... my luck isn't so good...
i feel like i'm bein disected by bein pulled in all directions...
oh well... been havin VERY frquent headache nowadays...
still haf tons of work in the office...
stress? ya...
i tot i love working wif stress...
welll... nope... i love working wif stress only when i'm doin sth i like...
n NO i dun like wat i'm doin...
argh... this will last for very long time...
pls be more understanding...
i may juz flare up all of a sudden...
i may speak nonsense...
i may just do anything...
just dun bother me wif too much prob...
i may just explode anytime...

2009-05-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday fred!!!
oh man... i'm feeling so shagged...
2 consecutive days of k-in...
n right smack in the middle of 2 outfields...
okie... my outfield is slack de...
still ate durain on thu... lol...
but wat is killing me is the weather...
super damn freaking hot!
and on thu the COA ("center of attention") came...
i have to take photo but i'm on my legs while he is on his vehicle...
IMAGINE!!!
walking so much to take photo... damn...
n this ICT is a warm up to the comin wks!!!
i c i oso scared liao... so much things... zzz...
i'm seriously tired!!!

2009-05-17T11:22:00.002+08:00

my knee is still hurting...
why i dunno...
usually it'll hurt for the day after i do life run...
okie i noe it'z been quite some time since i ran...
and i ran 2 rounds arnd camp on fri...
n i walked for some distance coz of pain too...
i expected my legs to hurt yesterday n yes it hurts...
it hurt alot more during the run n after it...
hurts even when i walk...
n today it's not feeling very well either...
AHM coming up... ttz like 21km of hell coming up...
ya i can walk all the way... but y torture myself?
there's still liferun every 1 3 5 till AHM...
should i push on to complete AHM (my dream is to complete full marathon)...
or should i go c MO? ya MO is useless...
i'll haf to go weekly get excuse RMJ if not haf to go liferun...
so i go MO oso to get referral to c specialist...
tt'll take some time... n my bz period here liao...
my boss wont be very happy if i go for MA...
damn... i dunno wat to do...
haiz...

2009-05-12T21:05:00.002+08:00

i'm tired...
seriously...
wat am i? who am i?
when will i be taken seriously?
i'm human still.. not an object...

dun feel really gr8... dunno since when...
i'm not happy... but i'm not terribly down either...
just that sucky feeling... haiz...
i dunno wat to do... sometimes i just feel so useless...
i need the occasional encouragement...
i need the occasional jiayou...
mayb itz really ns ttz causin all these breakdowns inside me...
will it be better after i ord? i dunno...
mayb itz gd ict is starting soon...
gonna get bz... well... slightly... haha...
mayb can drown myself in my bz-ness...
but these are not things i like to do...
how can i be happy?
i've lost my appetide too... =(
thanks yiling for acc me playing pool and bbl... =D
really appreciate it though it seems like a simple thing to do...
i believe i'll haf difficulty gettin someone else... =D
u jiayou n gd luck... =D

2009-05-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

had lots of fun today!! =D
okie everyone was late... so it's fine... haha...
went over to topone at bugis...
it's a new place to me but it's very nice!
way cheaper than k-box...
the only good thing about k-box i feel is their song is very updated...
after visits to different places...
been to places with way cheaper deals...
but their songs are very outdated...
but topone is really the deal...
it is cheaper than k-box... though not VERY cheap...
but have to take into account it's central location...
and also the almost 7hours of singing session...
FREE FLOW drinks...
and i bet the songs are almost as updated as k-box... haha...
rocks la... =D
very fun singing today... =D
maybe cause there's no "ou xiang tuan ti" songs... haha...
but really sing till very tiring... lol...
went arcade in bugis junction after that...
i was like is there really a arcade in bugis junction?!?!
but have to thanks xiangfeng for informing us!
i seriously didn't know arcade exist in bugis junction...
so went in to play, what else, the basketball machine!
in case you don't know yet, that is my favourite in the arcade...
my number one must play... after that comes daytona and bishi bashi...
played myself for the first game... after played with yiling and you'll only have to look below to know the results...
only got 500+ by myself... but together with yiling we got the scores below!
not very high actually but that's the highest i've gotten till now...
so i'm very happy... =D

yesterday was unit anniversary... brought the bulky camera along cause i don't want to get into the water... =P

after that is bowling... as usual my first few frames is my 'warming up routine'...

so the score is like so pathetic...5th frame i still have not hit 20... lol...

so some of them act smart... say last will treat breakfast... okie lo...

i just contunue with my warm up... i was rock bottom @ the 5th frame... and they were taunting me...

so bring it on... finish off my warm up... last 5 frame i tink got 3 strikes... with some spares too...

and with that i jumped to i tink a top 3 finish... too bad newcastle cant do tt...

they became quiet after that... haha... i like tt...

i find that i've become more and more unhappy...

i need my freedom... i noe wat to do.. i noe my job...

just give me a deadline and freedom i'll do a gd job for u...

my style is when i feel like it i'll do it...

no use pushing me... u'll just get shit from me...

welll... tahan 9 more months everything will be over...

cant wait for my 9 months to pass...

2009-05-06T23:26:00.004+08:00

i know it has been a long time since i last blogged.
the problem is there's nothing exciting in my life so i don't know what to blogged!
oh and one thing, i like to use small fonts and this colour, so if not interested can don't read. =P
about 9 more months to endure.
ok, must be wondering why i'm suddenly blogging right?
i'm on leave today! haha. with a purpose of cause. =D

as many would have known by now, AICO acheived GOLD for SYF this year!
very happy for my 'mother school' =D
it's been quite some time since i last went back.
i still want to go back. but the problem is i don't know ANYONE from AICO already!
if i go back people must be thinking why is this uncle here? haha.

and i'm on leave today is because i went down to support NYCO! =D
woke up at around 3am. to watch man utd thrash arsenal!
sailed through to finals. wonder goal by ronaldo again. =D
hopefully it'll be man utd vs barca, it'll be more interesting and challenging.
and when i went back to sleep it started to rain and very soon it rained cats and dogs.
but when i woke up again it was drizzling.
luckily when i am about to leave my house it almost stop completely.
had to walk all the way to the main gate. which resulted in my high temperature of 37.2! haha.
saw some holes on the ground in front of the co room.
and i speculate that it's the table of glory actors create by practising their serve action. haha.
and when they are done with their final practise i stuck with percussion all the way. =D
was at the loading bay and the backstage and went back ny and went to eat with them before finally going back to wait for results.
it was (honestly) not as scary as 2 years back.
but i'm still hoping the juniors will get what they deserve.
improved alot since i last visited them.
and they got it.
GOLD WITH HONORS.
congratulations everyone. =D
really happy for them. everyone was really high.
1st ever GWH for NYJC.
proud (and jealous haha) of them. =D
and dinner was on the teachers (again).
was only back like just now.
OMG it's like almost midnight!
i shall go to my dreamland.
back to reality again tomorrow. sigh.
long weekend ahead! looking forward to it! =D
good nights!

2009-04-07T23:55:00.001+08:00

MARKSMAN!!!
should i be happy or sad? so close to a perfect score...
well... =D/=(

2009-03-28T13:20:00.002+08:00

long time never blog again... haha...
i'm still feeling the after-effects of thursday's night cycling...
even after 1 whole day of rest yesterday...
my legs are still feeling sour but the worst part is that my knees are still hurting...
well... my legs are really cui bah...
alot of things i want to try but guess i'll have to give up...
things like completing a marathon...
i will really have to take very good care of my legs from now on...
still have a long way to go...
don't wish to suffer in the future...

okie back to topic... night cycling!!
it's my first time trying out night cycling... and it's long distance somemore...
in total cycled almost 60km!! but it's on a bike so it's quite alright...
alot better than the 24km and 28km route march...
though got a stupid incident which happen halfway... haha...
started the journey at 730pm... from the bike rental shop near the ecp macdonalds...
went up to tanah merah safra resorts (end of ecp)...
went on the road along the changi airport stretch...
very shuang to watch planes lift off while having vehicles zooming past beside you... haha...
then it's changi park... and when reaching changi park of cause we pass by the very familar SAF ferry terminal...
brought back memories of tekong... 9 whole weeks...
and at changi park it also broght back memories of the kayaking 5day 4night camp my class had in J1...
reach changi village and had some food before proceeding to pasir ris via loyang...
from there cut through pasir ris and headed down to kovan/hougang area...
pass by serangoon central (NYJC!!!) and also gracehaven... =D
ohya the stupid incident happened during this stage... haha...
was going up the slope cutting through this rural area... then my bike chain drop...
so stopped to repair it... easy... =P
and continued cycling but within 5mins i heared my fish singing...
my dad called... so i stopped to pick it up...
guess what... he called to ask if going home that night...
lol... i guess he don't understand the meaning of night cycling...
and as i was about to move on...
when i tried to lift my feet onto the pedals...
both my thigh cramped!!! OUCH!!!
so i just stood there for like 5mins....
but the cramp still there... and i cant lift my legs...
so i crab walked a little while letting the bike slide down...
it really hurts... rested for like 10mins (i guess) before i can move...
and it felt like cramping up again for the next few hours...
X( haha...
from hougang down to boon keng area...
and it started drizzling... when i just passed by a bus stop...
i thought i could go on to the next stop before i stop (since i pass that one)...
but as i cycled the drizzle became a downpour in a matter of seconds...
i want to cycle as fast as possible to the nearest shelter but the raindrops hitting my eyes and blurring my specs did not help... cause i was almost blinded...
worst is i'm on the road somemore!! that is definitely dangerous...
but i still reach the next bus stop safely... though i got VERY drenched...
waited for the rain to stop before moving off...
from there we hit beach road (dragon boating!!) before reaching the singapore flyer...
took photo (at night) with a camera handphone...
should be able to imagine what came out... haha...
headed down to esplande/suntec and went up nicoll highway...
before cutting down into kallang and finally turning into ecp and back to the starting point...
reached at close to 3am... and went back home straight...
it was a very fun and enjoyable experience (not counting the cramping experience) for me...
my 1st time trying out long distance cycling and it's at night somemore... =D
very glad to have completed the journey cause i had thoughts of giving up when my thigh cramped...
i would love to try it again but definitely not so soon...
i have to take care of my legs remember?
i hate this feeling but i have to do it... or rather i would have to force myself not to do it... =(

nothing much happened in the past few weeks... hmm except the trip to IT fair...
haha... last min then decide to go down... on the last day...
was stuck in the citilink mall for sometime... but u-turned went from esplanade to reach suntec...
but due to the overwhelming response we went walking around suntec and had dinner first before going to the show...
bought a set of earphones... spent over $60 bucks on it but i'm happy... =D
going to have a bbq soon... going off to prepare...
=D

2009-03-09T21:51:00.004+08:00

I'm still sleepy!!!
okie... had a great weekend...
met up with my secondary school "gang" on saturday evening...
went all the way to aljunied...
before travelling all the way to the singapore swimming club...
(like where the hell is this place? haha...)
went all the way there to such a "ulu" place cause iggy's dad is a member there and their 'k' is very cheap...
imagine paying $15 each for singing from 8pm to 1am, with 2 pizzas, 2 huge plates of chicken wing set, one mug of lemon honey each and also 2 jugs of drink(i don't know what it is... =X)
haha... that is indeed far cheaper than k-box or party world...
only bad thing is that it is not as updated...
we were stranded after singing finish...
no public transport except for taxi...
so we decided to go down to GEYLANG to EAT SUPPER...
haha... my first time experiencing GEYLANG's nightlife...
well... nothing much to comment though it was an eye-opener for me...
eh... shall not elaborate... in case it gets more and more misunderstood! haha...
walked around and settled for frog porridge...
that person initially "advice" us to get 3 pots...
since buy 2 get 1 free... so she told us to buy 6 get 3 free...
then we discussed for maybe around 10mins before we finally decided to order only 'buy 3 get 1'...
can see the person kind of pissed... haha...
after that we walked around till we reach a 'dou jiang you tiao' stall...
had some of it too...
chatted all the way till 4 den decided to go home...
can see from everyone's expression... haha...
reach home @ 430 and slept...

it's been a long time since i had such fun le...
i really cherish all my friendships...
i really do...
i may not b a good friend...
but i'll always try my best to be...
yes... i admit i do tend to emo sometimes...
well most of the times... and i always bottle things up...
well... it's my way of 'resting'...
it gets tired wearing mask everyday...
smiling @ everyone...
even my boss also asked me before why i'm always smiling...
well... one is cause i don't want people to see me feeling down...
it'll just affect everyone's mood...
i would rather people around me be happy because of me...
and not feeling down because of me...
yes sometimes it does feel lonely...
(rarely anyone initiates a chat on msn with me... maybe people are too used to me initiating one?)
but all i ask from my friends is just for them to be with me when i need them...
it is as simple as that...
*the closer the ties are, the more hurt one feels...*

2009-02-28T22:51:00.006+08:00

200th post...

shall do it in my fav blue...

well... i've been blogging with lesser frequency than before...

what can i say? there's actually nothing much for me to say...

everyday book in book out... weekends rot at home...

there is seriously nothing for me to say...

unless i state all my disappointments down here...

but no... i won't...

the feeling of looking forward to something and not doing it is not very nice...

waited so long but nothing happened...

reasons/excuses... i really hope is reasons...

but i wonder why it became excuses...

i'm tired...

tired of wearing a mask all the time...

shall take a break... stop wearing the mask for sometime...

but for how long i'm unsure...

it's so lonely...

i just need someone to understand the person behind the mask...

nt the mask itself...

updates as requested...

nothing happened this week except for wed and fri...

wed... i hope at least people do remember... is a very important day, or should i say night, for me...

took halfday off... went down at aroung 5 something...

the queue was already freaking long for a wednesday evening...

luckily found another fish fan... a friend of a friend...

if not i have to be alone again...

lack of photos because i didn't bring my sister's which i left on the table...

so we waited till JingRu came... and the whole place just went chaos...

people were pushing and squeezing...

i can only find 2 reason...

first the location... it's not suitable for autograph session...

second the organiser... they set up baricade at the front of the stage ONLY...

so the queue was for like 50 people only?

it extended all the way around bugis junction...

but when JingRu came... people just went all the way closer to the stage...

it's ok if they are not in queue to get autograph...

but after JingRu sing finish and the autograph session starts...

they just act as if they have been queuing for hours and squeeze into the line...

poor thing to the people behind... they cant even see any part of the stage...

they don't know what was happening in front...

after we found out what was happening, we just went infront to cut queue...

i know it's wrong but...

another thing is the sound system... it just sucks like shit...

and one more thing... only cd-rama was selling the album with the admission ticket...

so supposedly only people with the ticket can get their albums signed...

but end up everyone can do so... isn't that crap?

after getting the autograph, went to eat mac (again) and waited till JingRu left before we make our way home...

i just hope the next time it won't be cd-rama sponsoring and organising JingRu's autograph session again...

maybe can do the qin qin album mini concert again...

that's a very nice experience...

yesterday went to watch movie with my bunch of army friends...

well... it was quite nice but crappy as well...

don't know how to describe it...

it was my first movie in ages...

梁静茹-用力抱着

寂寞时你像个贝壳

闭上眼你倔强地捂住双耳

背对背地坐着

我们用沉默在拉扯

看谁的泪先输掉拔河

爱我时你不够严格

总忘了能够牵手多麽难得

我不怕生命有挫折

不怕回忆会有皱摺

唯有你说要放弃

我不愿附和

你心里有多少忐忑

交给我去用力抱着

双手还有热

或许能唤起你的不舍

有一天我们伤的心会愈合

心里的忐忑

抱着慢慢就会好的

感动都有了

还有什麽不认可

不准我们把爱给走成了坎坷

多少恋人不费唇舌

在一起却说服彼此不适合

我懂得生命有沼泽

懂得爱会失去光泽

只是在你怀里是快乐的抉择

我心里也有的忐忑

曾经你也勇敢抱着

思念还有歌

唱着我无法对你割舍

相信我们伤的心会愈合

心里的忐忑

时间跟我说会好的

决心放好了

这一次非你不可

若这不是爱那有过的是什麽

2009-02-09T21:42:00.002+08:00

yawnz...
so tired...
today is the last day of CNY...
today is oso my mdm birthday...
today is oso 365 days away from my ORD!
haha...

as to y i'm so shagged...
mayb coz i nvr exercise or sth...
haha... no la...
guard duty on sat...
1st time guard com...
nt very familiar with guard com stuff n so much things to do le...
1st the new soldiers all trained in SAR21 only...
1st prob liao... after awhile ok le...
den the 3 RTs... damn KFCC side...
make my job so much tougher...
well... luckily i got gd dso, do, bos, G2 and guards tt day...
my dear G3 like almost non-existance de... lol... jkjk...
sorry peeps for delaying bk out... ps...
anw itz a gr8 experience for me...
kinda enjoyed it... =D
sunday went home arnd 11 slp...
5 wake up to bath etc dinner...
11sth den slp... n this mornin needa go early...
1st day of ICT! excitin! haha...
post in so long finally got ICT liao...
but i need eng songs... need ppl to rec me...
i dun listen eng songs but i need them for ICT videos! omy...
btw next 2wks should be quite bz... Zzz...
ohya... opened the bcp today...
1st time in like 3+months?
haha...

anw... lkin forward to thu...
nt coz itz the 1st day i'm all alone...
nt coz got outfield...
but itz finally the review for my ankle...
hopefully got ans... got cure...
itz comin back recently again...
=(

anw... this sat will be so sad...
so lonely...
so . . . . . . . . .....
haiz...
well...

199th post!!!
i tink i'll only blog again on 25th or after tt...
200th post shall be dedicated to fish! =D

2009-01-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

happy cny eve! =D
ang bao collection and goodies eating time again!

i'm suppose to be back from nz only today...
omy... forget it...

past wk is very boring...
letz see wat haf i accomplished?
completed a digimon n a pokemon game in camp?
lol... tt just goes to show how bored i am...
nth to do...
no purpose in life...
no one to tok to...
so lonely...
sorry if my emo-ness make ppl unhappy/irritated/wateva... haha...
i wanna control it de...
but given my situation now i just cant help it...
but i will try to... =D
just hope the year of ox will be much much much better than the sad year of rat...
ratz... boo...

okie... thu was a halfday for me...
coz mornin got AI cny celebrations...
well... i didnt get into the pool as usual...
coz of many reasons...
so end up becomin the mascot for my team...
dressed up as cai shen...
end up become the winnin mascot... lol...
after the games is steamboat lunch...
the mail say the menu got alot goodies...
end up usual stemboat stuff plus fish ( jin mu lu) and herbal chicken only...
well itz free anw so... haha...
went home end up slpt the whole noon... haha...

fri mornin played abit of bbl!
omy... u'll nvr understand how it feels to get movin again...
tho i played awhile only...
dun wanna overstrain my ankle...
plus i nt fit @ all nowadays...
so long nvr play le really lost the feel...
didnt make a few shots which i would haf made normally...
but still enjoyed the session... =D
but now whole body achin n my ankle dun really feel very gd... haha...
time for it to rest again le... =D

went home bathed n change n left for ny...
cny celebrations! (but there's no co performance... strange...)
this yr tho lesser ppl (no J1 n VERY FEW ppl went back) it lks more fun...
mayb coz of the programme... more interactive bah...
went arnd lkin for familiar faces... chatted...
and almost everyone commented tt i dun lk like i'm servin ns now!
haha... tink coz of my hair bah...
i tink itz gettin long oso liao... if dun cut sure kena sth de...
but i will only cut it after cny... haha...
lunch wif yanjun... (it feels so weird to call a fellow 80's ms tan...)
chatted for like almost 2hrs... haha...
b4 finally goin home...
*my luck doesn't seem to improve... trip to ny n back both kena the old lousy 853... =.="

comin up soon...
my office ppl are comin back soon le...
gonna haf sth to do liao...
review comin up too...
and of coz the most impt day of feb...
nono... nt 14th feb... itz nt impt for now... =(
itz 25th feb! i've got a date wif fish... =D

梁静茹-属于

我坚持的都值得坚持吗
我所相信的就是真的吗
如果我赶追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢

或许吧或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情我们再一起努力

属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌吧
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?

是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情我们再一起努力

属于我的昨天之前的结局我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情我们再一起努力

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情我们再一起努力

梁静茹-别再为他流泪

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈

他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

以后管他是谁

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

2009-01-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

Simon ♥ Fish!!! =D
finally got it after so long... =D
so suay nowadays...
fall ill... very ill...
didnt get to go nz...
fish album out 2days liao den can get...
wah...
hopefully everything goes well after this...
=D=D=D
oh... n i really was slpin when i missed the flight...
stupid medication... =P
♥Fish♥

2009-01-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

i'll b on the plane in 24 hrs time lo... or will i?
fallen ill like since monday...
monday still ok... den yesterday wake up feel v hot...
38.1˚c... i ate breakfast le eat medicine den vomited everything out...
so went to lie down... rested for sometime felt better so went to camp...
saw mo got more medicine... the fever subside le... i tot no prob le...
this mornin woke up... whole body was burnin...
it hit 39.1˚c... really cant take it... so called DO say report sick outside...
n went back to slp... head very heavy...
now feel better than in the mornin...
but still kinda feverish...
37++˚c... hopefully it'll only go down n nt up again...
if tml high fever i dunno how liao...
dun haf to go nz le...
well... my health is more impt...
omy... this is crap la... i've nvr had such a high fever in my life...
y muz it come now...
anyway... on a happier note...
i got my very 1st mayday autograph! =D
got a t-shirt oso... wanna get the cap de but no more blue colour de liao...
anyway their concert is on 29th aug...
like... hmm...
haha...

五月天 - 突然好想你
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品
我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去
突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

林俊杰 - 我还想她泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她我不爱他
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她我不爱他
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷
请告诉她我不爱他
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

歌曲：伯乐歌手：林宥嘉
爱你的那一个伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个然后等待著下一个
最后哪一个让你最舍不得
感谢不能让别人来说你给过我的　
她们是做不到的
那时候的幸福是真的　
虽然过去了我们也都经历了
释怀教育著仇恨　和平劝著天下人
故事发生了便住下了　不管好的坏的
你让我成长了　就算是痛得值得
爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个
一个个过客过得快不快乐
爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个
别太多过客祝你早日快乐
离开时别忘了　看看眼前的人
流泪记住了　还是微笑祝福著

歌手：萧敬腾歌曲：原谅我
请不要分了以後还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手
请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活
请不要分了以後还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手
请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活
爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱
原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流我怕说不出口
原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我
爱原来要舍得
我难过
我才懂

2009-01-02T07:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

wao... i only blogged on the 2nd day of the new year... lol...
ttz coz my sis lappy is still down... =(
so i can only come office earlier to use the internet... lol...

i've experienced alot in the past year...
adult fare... working in the office for 3 whole months... and of coz the best of all... NS...
(i've oso dyed my hair for the very 1st time)
i've completed one whole year without any financial support...
tranport fare (mind u itz adult fare not student fare), food etc. all paid for by myself...
working in the office is really a very sian job... but the 3months @ bank of china is a wonderful experience for me... working wif some wonderful ppl... hopefully they are not affected by the recession... =D
after the short office stint... i had the feeling of becomin a baby again...
lol... coz the 1st day of NS haf to shave our heads... ok la mayb left 0.1cm of hair left... not totally botak... but it feels strange still... c-in everyone becomin botak.. lol... it actually felt gr8 to suddenly haf alot of burden of ur head... haha... the head feels lighter all of a sudden! but i wont want to feel it again... haha...
BMT came and went... it wasn't a very wonderful feeling for me...
den came SISPEC life... though it was shorter and tougher, it felt alot faster but enjoyable to me...
well... gd times dont last long...
den lucky for me posted to arty @ khatib camp... quite close to my home...
@ 1st i was quite sian coz wont b gettin my jungle hat anymore... i wanna earn it nt buy it...
budden slowly got used to it... and luckily for me posted to where i am now...
still @ khatib camp + stay out + no soc + overseas trip... =D
speakin of no soc, my ankle still haben recover and i still haben find out watz the prob wif it...
oh... and i'll b flyin off in less than one wks time...
haha... i shall stop the crappin liao... my boss here le... XP

for the new year i only hope my ankle faster heal and for the year to faster finish! coz i'll b 2010 den... ORD year! and 21st bd oso... =D haha... byebye... =D

2008-12-23T19:28:00.002+08:00

=D
last wknd was fun... =D
though for the past month or so i've burnt a big hole in my pocket...
haha... well.. retail theraphy... lol...
thanks for makin my day! u noe who u r...

i'll b countin down to christmas in camp!
omg... guard duty on christmas eve which is tml...
sianed... everybody halfday go home le i haf to do guard duty...
but gd thing is tt i get 1 day off... =D

ohya... i'm nt usin my sis laptop now...
everytime is use hers...
coz her laptop dunno wat happened...
siao liao... so u'll find me rarely online nowadays...
btw usin my aunt's laptop now...

lkin forward to the days after christmas...
=D

2008-12-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

finally i'm bloggin le...
life isn't very gd for me nowadays...
more downs den ups bah...
i juz hope for a major up to happen...

went for a short holiday up in the clouds last wknd...
while in the middle of the course...
gentin is a nice place...
i love the natural air there...
very fresh and coolin...
but they should ban smokin there...
itz only destroyin the whole place la...

well... itz nt really enjoyable for me bah... i guess...
feel trapped... no freedom...
sure i can roam arnd like no one's business...
but i'll b alone...
so i juz tagged along wif my cousins...
so many things cant do... well...
ttz my choice i cant say anything abt it...
i dunno y i so suay la...
more suay things happen to me again...
eg. go kart or fun kart as they called it there...
i took the 1st kart n end up last...
everyone overlapped me...
coz the stupid kart i tink no petrol liao...
zzz...

ohya... ps all words... no photos available...
want haf to go facebook...
all photos uploaded by my sis... =D

reached home 12+am le...
unpack stuff n clean up...
1+ den slp...
7sth reach camp liao...
u dunno how shagged it can b...
i could juz slp the moment i sat...

tue get to go outfield le...
long time nvr do tt le...
took some nice photos...

wed whole day clearin up someone's mess...
stare @ com the whole noon...
but well happy wif the final result... =D

den things go downslope le...
i was woken up TWICE in the middle of the nite...
for a supposedly missin key...
come on la... dun believe me...
hai me cant get a gd slp...
told 3 person upteen times the key is nt wif me...
itz wif u... make me wake up TWICE for nth..
n guess wat... the key is wif u...
joker...

oh... mr. oldman...
i juz hope u dun make life too difficult for me...
next time got anything want me to do...
juz tell me wat to do...
middleman only makes things messy...
i noe therez suddenly 2 person arnd...
things will b messy coz itz transition stage...
trust me i can do a gd job...
juz tell me wat i needa do n noe...
i will do a gd job for me...
dun ask me do sth...
den finish le den tell me wat u dun want me to do...
tt is crap okie...

juz want 2009 to faster come n go...
tt is 1 full yr... crap...
still so long to go b4 i can get out of army...
the stupid crap place...

anw... 3 more wks i'll b gone lo!
off to new zealand...
i dunno watz waitin for me there...
scared coz things settled by him nt me...
i dun feel confident...
if less something i kena hang jiu gg le...
cross fingers!!!

lk forward to sat!!! my motivation for now! =D

2008-12-08T09:48:00.002+08:00

tirin wk will b followed by another one...shagged...
finally got back up on stage yesterday!=D i'm happy bcoz of tt... =Dno matter how big the stage is...no matter how many audience there is...no matter how much the ticket cost...it is still a stage...i juz wanna experience the most basic feelin of standin on a stage performin for anyone...i dun ask for much...bein able to perform is gd enuff le...it brings back alot of memories...thanks for lettin me experiencin this feelin again...=Dthe last time i step onto a stage was like almost 2 yrs ago b4 yesterday's performance...nice feelin... =D
but therez more unhappiness than happiness... =(well... kids nowadays... haiz...i dunno wat to say abt them...they've become smarter yet more stupid...the whole co is in a total mess now...they can start by learnin the most basic thing...respect...i cant c tt in alot of the juniors...this is nt even related to co la...n i oso tink they can watch more spiderman...dun tink they understand the phrase...With Great Power Comes Great Responsibility...from my pt of view they r juz an individualistic bunch of children wantin to just finish performin n get home...i dunno them well la...but from wat i c, they still haf a very long way to go...let me juz state an example...the movin of instruments back to ny...i c a whole bunch of ppl standin there...n alot of guys nt helpin @ all...therez more gals than guys helpin wif the instruments!!! omg...well movin back on the lorry...no one coordinatin...ppl juz stand there watch...juz wanna throw everything into the lorry n get back home quickly...they dun even care abt the instruments...let the uncle move everything himself...no initiative taken...as an alumni... i dun haf to even bother...but to c even the teachers movin the instruments n the students standin there watchin was too much for me to take le...so naturally i went up onto the lorry to help...after some time... i had enuff of ppl standin below watchin especially the guys...so i asked if like they can lend a hand or sth on the lorry...guess the reply?i wear like tt how to get up?damn u la assholes...gettin up lorry only... i haf doubts abt u guys gettin over the ow wall in SBO...gd luck in army coz u guys will definitely get fucked big time...so pissed... plus i oso dunno wat instruments was brought over...so i dunno if bring finish le... no percussionist was arnd...WTH...after done wif the lorry le i was abt to go off to haf my dinner n get home...budden saw ms tan abt to get onto the lorry herself...all by herself...all the way back to sch alone wif the instruments...i asked if therez anyone followin...n therez no one...?!?!?!?!?!wat is this?a teacher doin all the students job?where is this world gettin to?so i juz followed her back to ny when i could haf gone home much earlier to rest...NO ONE took the initiative... ttz the pt i wanna say...how can u expect a teacher to go back wif the instruments n unload it all by herself?the instruments are theirs...their ricebowls...wat is this?wat pissed me off even more is tt i heard someone mentioned "wah... we are so efficient..."he mentioned it when they finally reach ny n all the instruments are unloaded already...OH PLEASE..."WE" are efficient?did i hear sth wrong? damn u idiots...grow up la...mayb they haf nt experience hardships b4...but their mindset is juz... crap...
oh n to most of the exco...pls rem this phrase with gr8 power comes gr8 responsibility...since u r granted the power of an exco member...u r responsible for it...itz as simple as tt...if u cant take the responsibilities u can reject the post de mah...itz like u take the post n ask someone else to do ur job?while u go on to accomplish ur personal acheivements when the orchestra needed u the most?wat is this? actualy expected an award for doin nth...power...acheivin personal goals is a gd thing...i nvr said itz wrong...but since the co is ur responsibility n u cant handle so much stuff @ once...u shouldnt haf choosen to go for ur personal acheivement...ttz nt ur piorities... i really dunno wat to say abt these kids le...are they hopeless?erm... kinda... most of them la...but i can still c hope in some of them...life is unfair...let the passion push u on...jiayou!to those tt are aslp in their own child's world...pls wake up...damn it...juz hope some of them would read this...it wouldnt b nice if the teachers step in...
tml will b the start of a course...gonna be bz lo...but lkin forward to gentin trip...i sound so deprived...haha...well...i am kinda in some aspect...haha... tired...

2008-12-03T22:39:00.002+08:00

OMG...
i tink i'm crazy liao...
erm... actually no...
i AM crazy le...

wah!!!

okie where should i start 1st?

i dunno!

haha.. okie...
well... this sunday i'll b goin back on stage again le...
like almost 2 yrs nvr go up on stage le...
well... the stage brings back alot of memories for me...
since sec one... till the last time which is syf...
ttz where i belonged... =D
but so long nvr use my wrist le...
itz rusty liao...
well i haf a few days to buck up n prac... i shall do tt durin my free time in camp... =D
itz kinda scary too... i dunno anyone there except for ms tan!!!
haha... well... i can only hope... =D
juz hope i dun cock up this sunday... =D
wootz!!! i miss the stage!!!
i miss co!!!
tired!!! but itz worth it... =D

okie... finally met the specialist which i'm suppose to c last thu...
hmm... he suspects it to be cartilage prob...
he sounds like he really knows it...
well... @ least theres some progress...
though wat is really wrong is nt known yet...
haha... guess wat...
mri scan on 29th... dec la...
den the review is on 12th feb!!!
omg...
ttz like more than 2 months later...
hmm...
i dunno wat'll happen between den...
will it make a full recovery?
i dunno...
cross finger n hope...

bad news!!!
fish album will most prob b out arnd mid jan!!!
when i'm in new zealand!!!
omg omg omg... wat should i do?
=( i cant get fresh fish liao... =(
shall c wat i can do bah...
if nt time in new zealand will b emo liao...
haha...

i tink itz quite late liao...
i should go n slp le...
percussion rox!!! =D
oh n 1 more thing...
Happy Birthday YiLing!!! =D

2008-11-29T21:08:00.003+08:00

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍...
我不能睡 ...

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

吃不能吃睡不能睡

wootz... =D/=(

2008-11-27T20:39:00.001+08:00

no ans no cure...
appointment kena postpone to next wed...
???
i oso dunno wat happened...
turned to 2nd alternative...
tui na hurts...
=(
my poor ankle...
i still dunno watz wrong wif it...

2008-11-27T11:44:00.000+08:00

finally...
will i get my answers today?
or better get a cure?
i hope so...

2008-11-16T13:35:00.002+08:00

>>>
after 7+months... =D
pop-ed yesterday...
n i can finally end my trainee life (which sucks) soon... woohoo...
somemore i'll b stayin in AI...
so i can stay out...
khatib camp stay out!
i didnt noe tt is possible abt 7 months ago... =D

hmm... i'm proud to be a specialist...
3rd sergeant now...
rem my bmt platoon sergeant once said...
i'm proud to b a sergeant n nt officer coz when u go fast food restaurant, they call u sir no matter who u r... they dun call u sergeant... =D hahaha...

itz been a mentally taxin past few months...
my ankle... accusations... deaths...
ya... c the s at the back...
pop le tot is happy but gotta noe news tt my relative past away...
well... ces't la vie...
make me more mentally tirin oso...
hope things get better...
hopefully can apply leave den go overseas wif my family...
my WHOLE family i mean...
my aunt plannin to bk bus bring everyone to gentin...
1st time... hopefully can join in...

ohya... i am the 2nd best knowledge in my course...
lost out only by 0.04 marks...
well... gd thing is tt i nt goin to unit... hehe...
wanna go out retail theraphy...
got a few thingS i wanna buy...
oh n i'm goin new zealand in jan...
pls let everything run smoothly from now on...

爱你不是两三天-梁静茹

退给你的信只剩下最后一封
淡淡笔迹你熟悉的温柔
请别介意我会将信纸好好收著
当我需要你关怀的时候

走过夏日街头还是想牵你的手
好想听到一句温暖的问候
虽然我们说好了还是朋友
但为什么却没有再联络

爱你不是两三天
每天却想你很多遍
还不习惯孤独街道
拥挤人潮没你拥抱

爱你不是两三天
一眨眼心就能沉淀
你是否想念我喔
还是像我只和寂寞作朋友

担心你没有好好的过
又怕你已经忘记了我
刚刚分手像告别很久
还想为你做些什么

2008-10-30T20:32:00.003+08:00

tired...
bcoz i didnt run 4 i dunno how long le...
really dunno watz wrong wif me...
am i juz suay recently?
haiz...

few wks of excused rmj n my ankle still nt okie...
=(
without the ankle support i'm wearin n the painkillers i apply daily...
i cant even walk properly la!
but wif tt i can @ least walk n run... tho slowly...
n now... after wed ippt...
i dunno wat to say...
1st the freak accident @ rmj station...
is use the machine de... den under the scoreboard got a sml slid...
due to my ankle prob... i jump will hurt...
resultin in me nt landin properly...
so i use my hand to break fall...
but slide forward n got my fingers into tt slid...
n kena deep cuts...
now regain use of 1 out of 3 fingers...
2 fingers still useless... cant use... =(
den the run i ran abit giddy le...
n vomited after the run oso...
haiz...
i really dunno watz the prob wif me la!
juz hope tt itz juz a streak of bad luck...
n it will end soon...
><"

anw i gotta bk in soon le...
tml suppose to b off de...
den yest course ippt didnt do well...
so haf to redo tml...
i tink i nt doin bah...
so today nites out for us to settle breakfast tml...
den tml ippt finish bk out...
but gotta bk in afternoon for guard duty... =.="
wat is this la! lucky i live close...

anw... i dunno y i always kena arrowed nowadays for those big roles la...
came back from funeral got ists exercise make me do bnro i understand la...
coz i didnt go survey 7 exercise... so i needa experience how bnro works...
den today fdc i kena 1st FDO...
n final exercise... exercise giant... i kena 1st FDO again...
wat is this!!! haiz...
2 more wks of trainee life n it'll all b over...
i shall consider abt down pes-in myself bah... c how...
anw gotta prepare for tml breakfast oso... so tata... sayonara...

2008-10-23T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hello! really long time nvr blog liao... haha... XD
past few wks had been tough...
both mentally n physically...
some of u would noe tt my uncle passed away...
n i got like a few days off camp n didnt go for survey 7...
some ppl are speakin abt tt...
haha... do u tink i would actually trade a person's life for tt benefits?
no way man... so pls tink b4 speakin... gonna hurt ppl's feelins de...

well... ttz one major thing which happened...
another is my ankle...
rem i say my ankle stiffness like abt a month ago?
well itz back again for quite some time le...
excused from rmj for like dunno how long le...
didnt run for quite some time...
well... i would prefer to be able to run instead of feelin so useless @ the side la...
but this stupid prob is really persistin for some time le...
well i tot it would recover by itself...
but after my uncle's death i dont wanna worry my parents so i went mo...
guess wat... kp on sayin is ligament prob... rest can liao...
now still hurt even after restin for so long lo...
can only live wif tt pain killer gel...
if nt i would haf difficulty walkin oso...
went for an x ray...
but tt only shows tt my bone is alrite...
i still dunno if it really is ligament prob or wat...
so i got a specialist appointment...
n guess the date... 27th nov...
wth... ttz after my course la!
now wat is worryin me is tt i couldnt pass the course...
everyone @ least clear one of the requirement le...
tho we all need to clear both...
tt is ippt n soc...
if i cant take i would haf ooc (out of course)...
well... suck thumb take painkiller n take soc tml...
tink next wed got ippt oso...
hope tml soc wont haf anything bad happen...
like later my ankle break or sth...
izzit worth it to push tt little bit more?
i dunno... i wouldnt noe unless i tried rite?
so i gonna try tml n c how bah...
cross fingers nth gonna happen...

itz like less than 4wks to pop...
hopefully i can get my 3sg rank...
hopefully i can stay in AI... so tt i can go home everyday...
to be close wif my family... =D
hope everything goes well from now on...
oh... another major thing happen oso...
someone (u noe who u r) i haf depended quite heavily on the past few wks had sth happened to her...
den oso dunno y... becomin further n further liao...
mayb bcoz of me bah... itz like i feel i cant tok to her liao...
den out of no where... an "old" friend pop out again...
haha... someone who i can really tok to abt anything...
=D glad tt u came back into the picture...
if nt i really wouldnt haf known wat to do when all these bad things happen...
to the "other-wise", i hope the distance wont become further...
hopefully the prob can b solved soon... =D
to old friend... haha... jiayou!
last few days liao n u can rot le...
same for me (if i can pass the course)...
letz all jiayou together... =D
lkin forward to life after course finish...
i wont b a trainee liao after tt...
unless of coz i ooc recourse la...

ohya... today went sentosa oso...
"national education" trip to fort siloso...
which i didnt even c...
n played volleyball! lol...
couldnt find the volleyball spirit in me until v late on...
dunno y oso... mayb bcoz of leg? bcoz of the diff ball feelin? bcoz of the ppl arnd me?
i dunno... but more imptly i had fun... haha... =D
so i gotta bk in soon liao...
but goin to bk out tml again le... haha...
wat a wk... XD
bb=D

2008-10-10T19:52:00.003+08:00

古巨基梁静茹-还是好朋友
作曲:黄韵玲作词:林夕编曲:钟兴民

没有人要内疚
没需要原宥
在十字街头
就相互保佑

那些体贴问候
那美丽镜头
没必要一分开
就变成了诅咒

相爱这一场
可能是为了
能拥有一个好朋友

还是好朋友
比爱人长久
不能牵的手按在心头
在最寂寞的关头
永远在左右

事过情迁后
升华眼泪后
思念是最漫长的享受
那无痛的伤口
还带着温柔
到白头

亲吻失去感受火花烧到尽头
没有激情没有感情
有另一种邂逅
是什么叫你我
只配做一对好朋友

2008-10-09T20:20:00.001+08:00

李圣杰-擦肩而过

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对

你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切

站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我说
你已经知道怎么做

你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走

站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

2008-09-13T13:48:00.003+08:00

i'm scared...
no i'm nt afraid of the pain in my ankle...
pain is nth...
i'm afraid tt i'll become useless...
itz nt like my knee...
i noe y it hurts...
but now my ankle...
dunno watz wrong wif it...
last sunday wake up v tight...
cant move @ all...
but after i bear wif the pain till i fall aslp n wake up 2hrs later...
the pain gradually drop through the day...
den wed it happen again...
n it hapened again today...
nvr had this kinda prob b4...
so duno watz wrong...
went MO yesterday...
he said should b overstrain...
should let it rest...
hmm i already didnt run the mornin 5bx run for past wk le...
didnt run @ all... y still like tt...
watz more scary is tt he say if it kps on recurrin i may haf to go do a blood test...
wat the hell is wrong wif my ankle!
i really dunno...
i dun like this insecure feelin... =(

kinda emo this wk...
sorry to all whoz affected by me...
ya in the end i still saw my fish...
i still got her autograph...
but i didnt get it personally...
i didnt shook her hand...
i didnt thank her...
i didnt...
am i too greedy?
am i bein too much of a perfectionist?
i dunno...
no one noes how impt fish is to me...
wat would u do if u were in my shoes?
no one noes...

2008-08-31T16:46:00.002+08:00

wknd goin to end lo...
had a gr8 wknd...
=D
thanks yesterday to everyone who went k-in...
i didnt expect tt surprise! =D
had a gr8 time...
today oso had fun playin bbl...
finally get to use the new ball liao...
haha... dunno y shootin improve... lol...
but still needa play more frequently...
the feel still nt back yet...
some shots i took nt confident @ all...
haha... but still fun nevertheless...
n thanks for the prezzie!
now i really cant wait for the dvd to come out...
listen v shuang le...
watch will b even more shuang...
=D

梁静茹 - 如果能在一起
填词：黄婷作曲：黄荻钧

夕阳快消失了
像一颗心沉入海底
投入灼热的光影

对话都结束了
胸口的悸动还没停
今天我更喜欢你

好想独占这距离
你的小心我的呼吸
谁会先鼓起勇气

如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的你的孩子气
和笑眯眯陪我未来的风雨

如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的我的好心情
心电感应让所有的心愿不怕来不及

人群都散去了
你鼻尖微湿的汗滴
蒸发在我的体温

好想独占这距离
你的小心我的呼吸
谁会先鼓起勇气

如果我们能在一起
你的天使会比以前爱美丽
会更美丽就像函馆的夜景

如果我们能在一起
唱一首歌会比以前有感情
心有灵犀就连太平洋也静静在聆听

如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的你的孩子气
和笑眯眯陪我未来的风雨

如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的我的好心情
心电感应让所有的心愿不怕来不及

如果我们能在一起
你的天使会比以前爱美丽
会更美丽就像函馆的夜景

如果我们能在一起
唱一首歌会比以前有感情
心有灵犀就连太平洋也静静在聆听

梁静茹 - 我们就到这
填词：方文山作曲：JS陈忠义

换一种方式咖啡还温热
我用雾气在镜面手写着爱你呢
床上音乐盒依旧旋转着
但你却不再为我唱歌说我是你的

对的错的做了选择故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻要多久才能够褪色
好的坏的做了选择我们就到这
纵然会难以割舍又能如何说好了这个时刻不互相指责

初恋的颜色我们都记得
像家乡那条小河透明得很清澈
你曾为我折一千个纸鹤
如今却连一个拥抱你我都尴尬着

对的错的做了选择故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻要多久才能够褪色
好的坏的做了选择我们就到这
纵然会难以割舍又能如何说好了这个时刻不互相指责

永远的承诺是你赐给的
只是当初任谁也不晓得
爱情的转折比想象中的坎坷
感情的怨怼拉扯牢牢捆绑着
有些裂痕你无法去却只能舍得

对的错的做了选择故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻要多久才能够褪色
爱的恨的做了选择我们就到这
就让我曾爱过的记忆深刻其他的（才能够褪色）
就此放手微笑得带过就此放手微笑得带过

2008-08-30T14:30:00.003+08:00

AUG is endin! =(
which means i'm 19 liao...
haha... spent my last teen bd in camp...
well... next yr should b the same...
but @ least this yr got someone else oso same bd as me... hehe...

a*** is gettin kinda borin for me le...
itz almost like sch days again...
whole day study...
n somemore i got hw haf to do...
lol... tt is definitely nt wat i perceived as army...
well... wat can i do?
everyday lesson end le den nth to do liao...
itz nt like 6sth end lesson lo...
ttz like last wk...
now is record 3pm nth to do liao...
almost whole day playin pokemon cards... =.="
haiz... wat can i do?
oso no motivation to "study"...
if stay in AI can stay out...
but den wont get to travel...
dunno wat to do... =(

oh n nt to forget...
THANK YOU!
to all tt wished me happy birthday...
brighten up an otherwise gloomy rainy birthday for me...
haha... funny recallin how the course was requestin for nite out the past wk...
usin the 2 26th so tt we can go out celebrate...
but still nvr nite out la...
ok... in order of timin...
no matter early or late or wateva...
thanks again... =D
(name) (date) (time)
Min Jun 260808 0000 -> the only one on the dot... thanks daughter for the effort put in to do so...
Sun Yu 260808 oo46 -> haha... wish me so many times... thanksss...
Jun An 260808 0829 -> hehe... r u tryin to get 0826 timin? mayb time diff on our hp...
Xiang Feng 260808 0948 -> v long time no c liao...
Chen Boon 260808 1110 -> my other daughter... haha... jiayou for studies dun give up!
Wilson Kwa 260808 1143 -> in taiwan liao... =(
Shu Min 260808 1225 -> jiayou for A levels!
Jian Ying 260808 1523 -> cya later... haha...
Michelle Lee 260808 1557 -> u'r next on the cls list!
Xiao Hui 260808 1946 -> sorry abt last wk... =(
Catherine 260808 2010 -> jiayou for O levels! tho u wont b readin this... haha...
Elaine 260808 2017 -> senior wish later than junior... lol... jiayou for uni wor... do AI proud...
Samantha 270808 1439 -> haf fun in malaysia... =D
Boon Ping 270808 1937 -> haha... itz okie to be late... coz u haf the excused status... lol...
Juliet 270808 2252 -> yet another senior... late... *shakes head* haha... dun too stressed up abt studies...
JiBin 290808 1258 -> haha... miss blur... studies more impt den rem my bd.. dun worry... cya soon hopefully... =D

okie... ttz all i received till now... kinda saddenin...
expectin some but they never came...
ppl wished me in camp u noe who u r...
dun haf to mention bah...
but a few which i tot would msg me (even if late) kinda disappointin...

but nvm... got sth to cheer me up!
or stress me up... haha...
http://blog.omy.sg/rockrecords the cd is out liao...
dvd out v soon oso...
now the thing is should i buy both?
hmm... i tink i should... haha...
another thing to stress abt...
the autograph session is on a freakin FRI!!!
cham liao lo... 7pm... if 8pm i still can relax abit...
wah... dunno wat time bk out tt fri oso... cross fingers no guard duty...
guess will haf to rush there...
den will sweat...
n v smelly...
how can i treat jingru like tt?
haiz...
n wat if i cant attend?
get ppl help me get autograph?
ttz nt the way it should b done...
ask others get for me den no point gettin it liao...
should i attn C? hmm...
stressed... haha...
i crazy hor? =D

2008-08-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

boo... itz nearin the end of aug liao...
n guess wat... i'm fallen sick again...
but this time nt bad la...
get to pon 6km run tml...
haha... whole body like breakin up liao...
stupid medicine...
i tink itz coz always go aircon room...
den my stupid nose start to run again...
plus yesterday drenched in rain...
worsen my condition lo...
now alot better liao...
but stupid medicine is makin me so tired...
haiz...

ohya...
i'm back in AI again... =D
2+ yrs after leavin AI...
but now is diff AI la...
guess wat i needa bring in the next bk in?
surprise!
calculator!
haha... n of coz alot of food n things to kill time...
yala got run alot la...
budden like everyday bath twice...
den always go aircon room...
sure fall sick more often de...

anws... 12 more wks to 3sg rank!
haha... time flies...
but i hope it flies faster...
4+ months pass liao...
still long way to go!
push on! =D

2008-08-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

pop lo...
got =D n got =( la...

=D is got cpl rank liao...
which in turn means got pay increment...
oops... allowance increment i mean... haha...
den postin kena khatib camp...
which is like SO close to my hse...

=(
28km was a killer... especially the ntu part...
SO many upslopes which are steep!
but at least i completed it... =)
though wif aches all over my body...
and the pain in my ankles spreaded to my knees n den my hips...
so the legs were like nua already... haha...
post out le so wont b wif my bunk ppl liao...
gonna meet new peeps all over again...
didnt get into the armour recce which i want...
kena arty instead...
so more helmet wearin instead of jungle hat! argh...

today went sentosa!
weather wasn't really gd...
super hot when we went...
so juz kinda sit there slack coz the sand was HOT...
after awhile it started drizzlin...
ttz when the sand stop becomin so hot...
den we played volleyball...
win 6 matches in a row!
muahaha...
nearly cont winnin lo...
haha... but they kp aimin @ fred so bo bian la...
anw my form wasn't really gd...
too long nvr play le la...
oh n tml bbl!!!
wootz!
i'm crazy liao... dun needa rest le... lol...
anw i gonna slp soon oso...
haha...

hope the rest of my army life goes well!
hope can get ippt gold!
gd luck to the new uni intakes...
gd luck to those takin A levels...
gd luck to everyone...
itz aug...
smile! =D

2008-08-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

yeah... i love aug...

just reach home nt long ago from k-in session... =D
long time nvr go k liao... feel so shiok!!

wahaha...
so happy in aug...
waitz for fish...

ohya... had ippt yesterday...
still only silver...
i noe all station i can get full pts le...
i haf the ability to do so...
but bein saf... they haf to do sth "diff"...
my 2.4 timin although is 5pts, i still cant get gold...
funny rite? gold timin is <09:45...
my timin now is 10:11...
y dun they set the gold timin as 945 den?
the pt system is for wat? =.="

comin up next wk is UO(urban ops) n 28km!!
den pop lo... cpl rank... =D
after tt dunno post where...
but i kena armour recce interview...
mayb will go there...
should b hiong la...
but i wanna wear jungle hat...
should b quite shiok when u c others wear helmet n u wear jungle hat...
HAHAHA... =D
dunno la... post me where den i go where lo...
nt like i can appeal or wat... zzz...

AUG!!!
exactly 1.5yrs to ord!!!
9th feb 2010...
waitz...

2008-08-01T22:51:00.004+08:00

vvv long time no c le... =D
bslc life almost over liaoz...
i dun wish to continue stayin in sispec...
go aslc means either infantry or guards...
I DUN WANT!!!
plus i nt confident of passin the soc... =(
on the other hand...
aslc can go taiwan n can get 3sg rank faster...
hmm...

v tired coz i juz completed grandslam...
sounds scary bahz...
but itz v slack... lol...
suppose to test us on everything we've learnt...
but test in section of 7 men...
so while others are testin...
the rest can wait @ harbour area for durains...
haha... really is wait for durain drop den go collect n eat...
too bad is v sweet type... nt the bitter type which i love...
b4 granslam was wanderer...
prior to this was gypsy...
both navigation la...
v cool found all check pts... =D
which nt everyone did...
wah... remind me of something...
gypsy 2 i brought my detail back to admin pt quite early...
3rd to reach... so 1st wave to return...
budden end up i watch them bk out tt nite while i stay in camp till sun mornin den bk out...
zzz lo... stupid cdt duty...
anw wanderer which is the test i brought them back in 6th place...
=( missed out on the 1st wave bus back... haha... but nt bad le...

ohya... i so long nvr blog is bcoz either got wknd duty if nt too tired coz 2 consecutive wks of field camp...
but anws 2 wks later i'll pass out of bslc liao... =D
n itz the month of aug...
tink fish de concert dvd comin out soon...
n oso heard her new song le... =D
AUG!!!
2 more yrs later i'll b in uni le!!!
tahan 2 more yrs... =D

2008-07-05T22:12:00.002+08:00

25% of sispec life is over le...
time flies...
left 6 wks...
den i'll become a corporal liao...
dunno wanna go aslc or nt leh...
yala can go taiwan...
but my soc...
my stupid knee... argh...

anw the 1st wk comprises mainly of lectures...
haha... ttz wat make us so tired la!!!
whole day lecture listen till sian le...
2nd wk more excitin... haha...

handle 3 weapons this wk...
SAR 21, SAW n M203...
ooohhllaaalllaaaaaaaaaa....
haha...
highlights of the wk...
2 consecutive nite out...
wed n thu...
but i only went for the thu one...
only to experience it...
haha... go jurong pt walk walk only...
eat sth den go back liao...
quite stupid la...
haha...
den yesterday haf ippt cat test n CO tok...
silver for ippt...
i still haben reach the standards for gold...
left the stupid 2.4 only...
below 945!!! a little crazy la!!
haha... but i'm sure i'll get it someday...
timin improvin everytime...
ttz a gd thing..
the co dialouge was a gd thing...
haha... coz it gimme 2+hrs of slpin time... lol...
den 2dae was sports day... nth much to tok abt...

i feel tt the food is nicer @ sispec la...
mayb is coz of the fish...
haha... feels more like fish meat in the mouth...
budden the aunties will nvr give more(except rice)...
wah... if add rice u'll haf 1 big plate of rice wif nt much dishes liao...
ttz y i v rarely add rice tho i'm hungry...
n oso the most commonly appeared item is chicken wing...
or drumstick la...
everyday sure haf @ least 1...
haha...
i'm nt gonna eat kfc for the next 2wks liao...
lol...

this wk kinda tirin...
always slp past 11...
den wake up b4 5...
mon whole day technical handlin...
tue compass course...
wed ppl nite out... come back v noisy...
thu i nite out... haha...
den do lbv... till past 12...
fri the stupid tok den area cleanin...
zzz...
and the PTs...
ran quite a few rounds in total on some days...
both hands nt anuff to count...
haha...
zzz...
my mind cant tink now liao...
so i tink gonna stop here...
c got time next wk or nt...
ohya... fish didnt win the best singer award...
=(
but i love her new duet... haha... =D

2008-06-18T21:01:00.002+08:00

argh....
stupid army life...
make me become more n more stupid...
=(

been tryin to rem wat i've forgotten...
i noe sth impt happened recently...
but i cant seem to rem wat it is...
argh... until now...
i juz recalled...

tt impt day is 2 days ago liao...
i forgot to do sth...
16th june...
rem?
i every yr will put up a specially dedicated post on this special day...
i actually FORGOT this yr...
u muz b wonderin bah...
itz my fish's bd...
=(
n i forget...
sorry fish n happy belated bd...

n to mj n jack n jb... the june babies in 0621...

v pissed wif myself...

ohya... gotta mention sth...
i dun like annoymus taggers...
so i v rarely reply these tags...
nowadays i feel like changin this to a private blog...
may juz change it anytime..

haiz... juz fed up wif myself.
how could i forget her bd?
=( =( =(

对不起我爱你
梁静茹
词:潘协庆李宗盛
曲:潘协庆

没别的只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想
你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定

你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧

想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你对不起
对不起我爱你

没别的只想说对不起
怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲你怎么做
也不会影响我的心情

你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸
难捉摸爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要
一想你我的心就狂跳

我的模样记不记得牢
情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你
听歌想着你
大地和蓝天出现的全是你

我才不管你的表情
我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你对不起
对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳
你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你又不想放弃你
决定告诉你对不起
对不起我爱你

2008-06-14T12:11:00.002+08:00

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people!
I'm tagged by Chen Boon!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
shocked->tryin to convince myself itz only a joke->acceptin the fact->findin out Y...

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
life wif nth to worry abt is too sian... so mayb i want some superpower such tt i can change the world or help others...

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
BLUE

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
sort of... 2yrs to plan for my future... takin things 1 step @ a time now...

5. What's your ideal lover like?
accept me, love me... simple enuff...

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
if haf to really choose one itz to love someone...

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
if i really love tt someone i would b willin to wait forever...

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i wont do anything... just try to give up...

9. Is being tagged fun?
eh... erm... uh... hahaha...

10. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
must b already in the workforce leadin a @ least stable life... mayb married... n hopeful of havin kids...

11. Who are currently the most important people to you?
anyone who loves me... my family... my friends...

12. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
my daughter... haha... of coz v gd person la!!! like father like daughter... lol...

13. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
single & rich... bein realistic here...

14. What's the first thing you do every morning?
wake up? lol...

15. Would you give it all in a relationship?
only when i'm 100% sure...

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
none... sort out feelins 1st... unfair to all parties...

17. What type of friends do you like?
mutual respect... enjoy common activities... understandin... LOYAL...

18. What type of friends do you dislike?
selfish n backstabbers...

* TAGGED:
-fred
-jinyu
-jiaying
-jianying
-minjun
-aaron
-sunyu
-sam

歌曲：你不在
歌手：王力宏专辑：不可思议
王力宏-你不在作词:李焯雄作曲:王力宏

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
不过渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我并吞

wo 你不在
当我最需要爱
你却不在
wo 无尽等待像独白的难捱
wo 你不在
高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
我受了伤害再偷偷好起来
你不在

时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人份你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说得对我不得不承认

wo 你不在
当我最需要爱
你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难捱
wo 你不在
高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
wo 受了伤害再偷偷好起来
你不在

wo 那些摇摆我都明白都明白
但你不在爱已不在不在
你不在
当我最需要爱
你却不在
wo 一个人分饰两角的恋爱
wo 你不在
高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
wo 像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱你不在
当我需要你的爱你不在

2008-06-12T13:17:00.002+08:00

i'm a private le... but i'm still rankless... haha...
but tt doesn't matter to me...
watz more impt is tt i dun haf to c those bas****s anymore...
yeah... cross fingers hope tt itz true...
later posted same place jiu =.=" le...

last 2 wks was tiring...
rained @ bac ground where we haf to back crawl in muddy pool of water wif the rain splashin against our face...
den 24km route march... same old thing abrasions n blisters... but nt as bad as 16km...
so still okie... but this time round the blister is filled wif blood nt pus... eee... haha...
games day i didnt take part... kinda expected tt when u haf those kinda team members...
recruits evenin the only part i enjoyed was when zhiyang was singin... haha...
didnt really slp for the last 2 nites... coz i noe they goin to target me...
they wanna play i play wif them lo.. c who last longer...
for the last nite i was quite surprised they actually gave up when itz only 1sth...
no challenge @ all la... i was wide awake n prepared to be like tt for the whole nite...
all these r the past liao...
no more them le...
=D ttz more impt... =D

block leave is time to rest relax n enjoy... =D
ppl free pls ask me out... haha...

2008-05-31T00:30:00.003+08:00

10 more days to pop...
n i wont c tt f*** face in the bunk anymore...
i'm like wonderin how a person wif tt brain can possibly get 7a for a levels...
haha... kinda show tt his brain is only useful in sch academically la...
saddenin... but true...
i'm quite sad tt the sch actually produces this kinda student...
sad bcoz he is actually my sisS de junior...
wth rite?
well...
since he likes to attack ppl personally...
oh wait... he is startin to attack ppl liao...
based on sch... haha... stupid...
okie... well...
personally i dun tink there's any prob wif the sch la...
itz the person himself...
mayb therez sth wrong up there...
or mayb therez sth wrong @ his home...
anw who cares abt tt loser?
let him crap himself out for the remainin 10days...
well... sayin ppl r homos... lol...
if he is so man y is he still in bunk?
havin "ps" nite wif his "buddies"...
lol... ttz kinda gay too isn't it?
ohya... he is in bunk bcoz he cant even pass his ippt la...
ohya... n he slps every possible time he gets...
even if itz only 5mins...
too bad i cant bring cam in...
if nt everyone will b able to c how the f*** face slps...
f*** face slps wif his f***ing body in a f***in position...
haha... loser...
=P

btw i got silver for ippt n got early bk out today... =D
had a bar of mars while waitin for my dad... yeah...
n bot subway back home for my 2nd round of dinner...
quite sad therez no more double choc... my fav...

yups... nth much happenin this wk...
mon was 16km... the walk was ez...
the hard part is the abrasion n blister...
i haf 2 HUGE patch of abrasion on my inner thigh la!!!
v red on tt day...
now almost fully healed le... yeah... abt palm size on both sides...
n the blisterS...
one on my rite little toe...
n one each on both soles...
left side was ok...normal size...
right side was HUGE...
slightly bigger than my thumb...
damn pain la...
walked wif limp for 2days after tt...
den yesterday was ippt...
quite pissed off i didnt hit my target...
but anw i'll still get the same silver anw...
so okie la... try again next time...
haha...
eh... the rest of the time was spent on trainin for games day...
i'm in the stupid caterpillar race la...
stupid bcoz someone else in it...
u noe who... zzz...
ohya... completed bcct on wed oso... haha...
rest of the time was spent SIB-slack in bunk...
haha...

next wk abit more hiong...
mon BAC... battle assault course...
tue soc... i cham le la... leg n back pain i dun tink can complete the course...
wed 24km... hopefully wont blister n abrasion till so cham...
either thu or fri will b games day... zzz...
n the rest of the time will b spent rehearsin for the parade...
yeah... this signals the end of bmt...
i'm quite happy wif my bmt life...
but quite saddenin i haf a mad dog who just kps barkin in bunk...
if nt he'll b slpin...
if this mad dog is removed...
i believe my bmt life would b better... =D

ohya... suddenly rem one incident...
one mornin (i tink is thu mornin) the sgts found a mouse...
then they put in the bin la...
tt day aaron on status den he sit near there...
den the di for tt day ask aaron to get rid of the mouse...
i must tell u 1st... the mouse is a sml size one...
v cute... wif the eyes glitterin...
den aaron went to release it near the shore area...
den the di found out he pump aaron for tt...
wat a heartless person la!!!
alot ppl in tt area oso agree tt wat aaron did was the rite thing to do lo...
so aaron was quite happy to get f*** by the "permanent" di...
lol... hmm... wonderin wat the "man" will feel...
i tink he sure oso the same type one la...

haha... okie...
enuff of crappin liao...
gonna go rest soon...
kinda tired...
yeah...
10 more days... =D
tahan...

2008-05-24T14:55:00.002+08:00

17days to pop...
v soon it'll b over...

range over le...
result wasn't as gd as i expected...
tho i didn't flunk it...
i didn't exel in it either...
23/32...
i dunno watz wrong wif me la...
i could even miss a standin shoulder fig 11 50m away...
haha...
watz wrong wif me???

itz nice sittin @ the stairs watchin the planes fly over in the dark sky...
itz nice lkin @ the changi airport control tower @ nite...
the only thing missin is my fish's music...
haha...
y @ this time?
nt much PT le...
wont tire me out le...
leavin me wif so much energy to emo...
i said i wont emo again...
but who cares now?
i tink no one bah...
haha...
saddenin...
n my stupid knee is hurtin again...
stupid OLD prob...
hope wont affect ippt next wk...
hope wont affect soc...
hope 16km on mon wont worsen it...
hope EVERYTHING will b back to norm...
hope...
miss the days...
feelin lonely...
most prob bcoz i cant connect wif my section...
especially wif the idiot who tinks hez v smart...
oh well...
forget it...
bmt will b over soon...
17days...
i'll only miss the moon/star/plane watchin nites...

2008-05-19T10:59:00.002+08:00

22days left...

i miss the star-gazin/moon-gazin nites...
the stars n moon seem brighter @ outfield...
itz just so beautiful... so calmin...
i need tt just now...
but i wont get it anytime soon...

yup...
i've lost...
i just need someone by my side now...
feelin so lonely...
everywhere i go...

bmt is nt helpin oso...
bmt faster finish...
faster...
i dun wanna emo...
v long nvr like this le...
i tink i'll just let myself emo for awhile...
take it as a v costly lesson learnt n move on...
yup..
ttz rite...
in weakness we are made strong...

feel so disconnected from the world...
no news @ all of the outside world...
quite saddenin to step back into the real world...
the world outside tekong...
suddenly flooded wif so many depressin news...
so many natural disaster happenin within 1 wk..
haiz...
i tot comin back to the real world would b betta...
it seems nt...
well...
both sides sucks now...
tt means my life sucks now...
haha...
pop faster come...
n hopefully i wont b affected for my life firin...
tired...

2008-05-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

completed field camp!!! =D
ps jinyu... i'm so stupid...
i guess i'm kinda crazy le...

i dunno if itz coz i'm too tired or wat...

i'm nt totally myself these days...
felt lonely...

field camp started of wif a 12km route march in FBO...
FBO includin LBV, helmet and the field pack wif all the standard items which r useless n wiff additional stuff we need for the field camp...
started in the mornin ended in afternoon...
total dist to camp site was more than 12km la...
damn tired... but den must build the basha for shelter tt nite...
basha part was alrite...
but the drainage part was not...
damn tired after tt...

day 2 was slack day la...
lectures etc... n some practices only...

day 3 collapse the basha...
den was lecture for grp movement...
nearin the end of lecture it started rainin...
den we just practice wat we learn in the heavy rain...
the rain wasn't as heavy as the kayakin day...
but it was sure tougher n less fun...
due to the ppl arnd bah...
too many assholes arnd le...
we were all wet...
drenched n cold n hungry...
went to the UO place to rest...
b4 startin a arnd 6km route march to out 2nd site...
slpt on groundsheet under the stars for tt nite...
was damn cold...
due to me nt changin clothes coz my groundsheet oso wet la...
change = no change...

whole day of day 4 was spent diggin our grave...
more commonly known in the army as the shelscrape...
it was tiring la... not the digging part but the cuttin of the roots part...
i suay kena a spot wif lots of roots...
but i still manage to dig up something nice n comfortable for me to slp in...
ttz a gd thing...

day 5 was quite slack... covered the graves...
practice wat we haf learn earlier...
relax for the day...
@ nite oso slp on groundsheet...
though itz already last nite but the stars still dun really dare to come out...
y leh?
been wantin to star gaze la...
but only manage to spot a few...
not as much as tt sit test nite...
but this time manage to moon-tan... haha...
ohya... n i "saw" a wildboar which i wanna c...
too bad itz @ nite... i couldnt c how it actually lk like...
was goin back from the latrine...
den i sensed something moving @ the side in the trees...
i turned n lked...
indeed i saw a figure of a pig...
haha... serious...
so i suppose itz a wildboar...
it was arnd 15-20m away...
quite big size...
i stopped it oso stopped...
lked @ each other for abt 2sec...
den we just walked away...
haha...

n finally last day...
day 6...
which was yesterday... (past midnite liao)
walked to the BIC ground near rocky hill...
went for BIC...
tiring man...
n v soon it was bk out le lo...

yeah... goin out wif friends tml...
hope will haf alot ppl...
erm i mean today... haha...
damn tired...
i tink itz coz lights out r @ 2100 for the past 5 nites...
so feelin tired now...
haha...
kena alot of mosquito bites...
alot of minor cuts...
got abrasion @ my hip area...
rash on my back... it damn itchy...
blisters on my toes...
theres one on the right little toe which is makin it lk so huge la...
enlargin it to abt twice itz original size...
i c liao oso damn sianed...
haha...
okie le la...
goin rest liao...
gonna need energy to haf gd time tml... i mean later... haha...
yeah... v fast some pl wont appear in my life liao... =D
but someone may just disappear from mine...
i dunno la... too tired to tink abt it...

歌曲：给从前的爱
歌手：梁静茹专辑：燕尾蝶下定爱的决心

曲:阿牛词:李焯雄

你语气是轻的
但意思我懂得
你转身雨季就来临
有什么洗不干净

对你是对的
再牺牲到底不值得
趁现在友好的分开
总是好的

为何有了勇气还是不够
握紧的还是都放了手
摩擦里一点点一些些消失了相爱的理由

也取笑过他们
为何爱不持久
这一刻我才晓得
忘记比思念长久

我一个人走
自由了但要往哪走
我相信你人是好的
但那爱呢

为何有了勇气还是不够
握紧的还是都放了手
摩擦里一点点一些些消失了相爱的理由

为何有了爱却还是不够
捧在手还是都松了手
生活里一点点一天天没发现牵手变对手

难道压力在推
我和你才扣紧手臂
抵抗后疲惫反而后悔

2008-05-11T17:14:00.003+08:00

tired... stupid medicine...
stupid cough... y come now...
zzz...

yesterday just returned from a 3day 2nite sit test...
tml goin off for 6day 5nite field camp...
n i'm coughin... wth...
all outfield... n i'm sick durin outfield...
tml 12km route march...
hopefully i'll b fine after this wk...
hope nth will happen to me...
ohya... i vomited last nite oso... twice somemore...
damn it...
i must hang on...
push through this wk!!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

byebye...
man utd win 2nite...
make me happy n motivate me for the comin wk...
=D
byebye...

2008-05-04T12:08:00.003+08:00

2nd bk in later... =D
sit test comin up...
after which will b field camp... =D
threw grenade n shot blanks the past wk...
nt as excitin as i hope it'll b...
waitin for live firin which will only b after field camp...

wed nite bk out...
thu mornin played "badminton"... haha...
played abit lan gamin after tt coz waitin for movie...
watched ironman...
n coincidently saw sarah for the 2nd time since my haircut...
haha... so qiao lo... n saw her again on sat... duh...

fri went SDC visit... itz really a waste of time...
went back ny collect co tee... itz nice... =D
talked to a few teachers... =D
went home after tt...
n met my kindergarten teacher!!! lol...
she rem me!!!
was walkin to my lift in my smart 4 den someone call me by my chi name from behind... haha...
she still rem me... =D
ohya... my kindergarten is downstairs only... haha...
chatted for awhile b4 goin home... haha... fun...

yest went cls outin...
had lunch @ kallang... kfc...
haha... 2nd kfc meal in 3 days...
den went k-box...
kinda sian...
coz i went toilet came back most r she n fei lun hai songs... zzz...
den went ps dinner...
b4 goin back home...
met fellow aico ppl on the train...
haha... so qiao...
chatted awhile @ the station b4 goin back home to rest...

v soon will haf to go back into tekong le...
sit test comin up...
den is field camp...
ohya... go in jiu haf ippt v soon...
hopefully silver...
should b able to @ least pass bah...
haha...
itz fun in the army...
sometimes it takes ur mind off stuffs... =D

2008-04-27T13:01:00.002+08:00

long time no c!!! =D
okie... alot ppl haben c me... haha...
i botak le...
eh... nt really botak la... got hair but only v short... lol...
no photos!!! bleh... wanna c muz c in person...
haha... so ask me out!!!
nt today la... bkin in later again...
but next wk long holiday...
enquire abt my time table!!!

spent abt 16days in tekong...
no contact wif outside world... nt totally la...
come out le feels so strange...
feels like i'm a stranger enterin a new world...
feels so diff...
i dunno how to explain la...
but just felt kinda lonely bah...
hmm...

nope... i'm nt gonna blog abt army life...
most will noe itz kinda restricted...
so better nt... if nt i kena sth cham liao... haha...
but i can say itz kinda fun...
i kinda like it n i adapted quite well to it v quickly...
mayb coz of the positive mindset i brought in... haha...
now 44days left to POP... v fast lo...

i so gonna miss my W910i again...
haha... just simply love it... 16days nvr touch it...
feel so shuang to c it again...
16days nvr hear my fish de voice...
kinda torturin...
gonna bring mp3 in...
=D listen fish nitely... haha..

i dunno wat to blog abt le la...
so sian de...
no pt etc today...
haha...
hopefully i'll still b alive after tml...
=P
jiayou!!!
sayonara...

2008-04-09T12:06:00.003+08:00

tml is the day!!!
wait so long... now wait 1 last day le... hehe...
i'm sure i'll lk strange after the haircut..
but benefits more leh... no more hair gettin into my eyes n ears...
nt so hot... less burden on my head etc... haha...
today is the last day i'll use my 910i... next time will b like more than 2wks later...
i'll miss my 910i de... =(
ohya... i've decided le...
i will nt msg anyone... i'll only reply... haha...
i dunno wat time i can receive or make calls... but it should b arnd 9-10pm...
same for msgs bah...
hmm... tml is 930 report tekong...
they say is 830-845 reach pasir ris...
so i tink i arnd 7+ leave home bah...
when i leave home den no more hp liao...
so everyone haf up till tml 7 bah...
n thanks sarah for msgin me so early la...
haha... received last nite...
typical yishunian behaviour... lol...
yishunains rock!!! i'm the sole yishunian guy from 0621 to go bmt... lol...
i siao liao...

went zoo yesterday... stupid rain...
but had fun drench in rain...
haha... i actually did tt 2days b4 i enter tekong...
i'm crazy rite? haha...
pictures cant put up coz nt usin my sis laptop.. =(

later goin k-box... ya... 2nite den pack...
zzz...

张智成-末日之恋
作曲:林俊杰

剩下没多少时间
让我再唱一首歌给你
一过了今夜世界就毁灭
我想我还有一天
可以学会如何来爱你
在来不及以前渴望来得及

闭上眼睛忍住泪别哭泣
末日前夕请留在我怀里
看太阳暗去月光失明
我只想牵你的指尖绕地球最后一圈
黑夜降临别害怕我爱你
末日前夕请留在我怀里
我在这世界最眷恋的事情
就是曾拥抱你

多想永远拥抱你
我感受到什么在剧烈颤抖
是天空或者你的手
别让任何事情打断我看着你
最后一次看着你

eh... okie... this is kinda extreme for my last post...
haha... like tml is the end of the world...
itz nt!!! tml is just a start of another capter of my life... =D
tml is just another day... haha...
start of my holiday... =D
my plannin for my future...

潘嘉丽-再联络
作词:李若君
作曲:张正宗

这些日子受你照顾很多
一鞠躬真的感动
很难想象两种时空
会因为爱情交错停留

但世界比想象中大太多
越探索就越迷惑
终于沉默承认寂寞
时空又再次转动

爱情就到这段路口
有空再联络
那些爱过哭过笑过动过的念头
全都一笔带过
没有谁对也就没有谁错

爱过大步向前直走
有空再联络
那些为你为梦为何失去的自由
我就顺便带走
大哭大闹一点都不像我
酱你懂了没有

这些日子受你照顾很多
一鞠躬真的感动
冲动气泡微酸苹果
调出爱情甜美的经过

但世界比想象中大太多
越探索就越迷惑
终于沉默承认寂寞
灿烂而短暂的梦

要说寂寞好像也不寂寞
再见吧不要回头

okie... this oso kinda strange... i cant tink of any other songs le la!!!
haha... funny... this is how my last post gonna end.. haha...
okie...
byebye...
再见...
sayonara...
au revior...

2008-04-08T10:12:00.002+08:00

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会
你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖我很快就...

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

2more days... here to say bye bbye in case i wont b online tml...
bye bye bloggy... u'll haf spider webs growin all over u soon...
bye bye everyone who cares...
bye bye...
this may b the last time i get to say bye bye...
so... ya...
i may nt send gdbye msgs on thu...
depends...
so bye bye...
i'm lost for words for now...

2008-04-06T11:46:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna avoid some places for the time bein...
i'm nt goin to vivo again in the short future...
thu faster come...
less hair less burden on my head...
next 2yrs will b spent plannin for my future...
chem eng may nt b wat i take in the future...
i dun wish to retire...
hopefully i'll haf my car when i'm 26-27...
etc... some vision but nt v clear...
so hopefully next 2yrs will b fruitful...
ns... faster come...
i hope i wont b forgotten...
anything can hapen in 2yrs...
i just hope i would haf played a part in everyone's life...
make a diff to their life...
n they'll rem me... i'll b contented...
sorry i emo-ed last nite...
happiness is a choice... i dun wanna emo again...

2008-04-04T13:26:00.003+08:00

less than 1 wk to go!!! yeah... gettin excited but haben do much preparations... haha... haben check if i got all the list of things i need to bring yet!!! aiya... @ most is share lo... haha... this is call teamwork... lol... hmm... dun haf to b so scared coz there'll b a bunch of singaporeans!!! kiasu-ness ensures tt there'll b enuff supply of stuff in case i dun haf anything... haha...

last sun went sweep tomb... as usual... haha... hot day... zzz...

mon went amk hub make specs... coz my cousin workin there den she ask me go there do... haha... quite cheap la... my usual rate... hehe... met wif tricia... den after tt aaron after his last day @ work... went arcade play... hmm... i shouldnt play bishi bashi after the bbl machine... my hand v suan lo... den kp lousin to aaron... duh... if i play bishi bashi wif my healthy hands i'll win de... hmmph... ate dinner le den went home...

tue spent rottin @ home... haha... april's fools is no longer sth i like le... haha... i've grown up liao... nt as childish as someone who goes arnd tryin to fool ppl... haha... nice try la sy... but too bad u failed to fool me... actually i dun like ppl to play wif matters of the heart... itz so cruel... but the msg u ask sam to forward to me is too u instead of sam... haha... lousy... told u no one can trick me de liao dun believe... =P

wed went sch after lunch for trainin... went gymin for awhile den played squash... haha... miss sch food so ate sth... haha... after walkin arnd sch went runnin... arh... whole body went into hibernation for a few months le... suddenly restart the engine the engine kinda choked... haha... took arnd 10min just to complete 1.6... duh... cham la... went bath after restin awhile more den went amk hub again... haha... to collect specs... so funny wif black specs... lol... meet up wif jb n after a v long time (as usual) finally choose to eat fish & co... yeah.. so happy la... itz nice de lo... wanted to treat u de... but chance nt given... so... ya...

yesterday suppose to rot @ home de... budden my aunt call ask me go b her consultant for her coz she wanna buy laptop... haha... i wanna buy oso... but tt'll b 2yrs later... =D treated to subway (finally ate subway again after 2wks+) n dinner... went her hse settle somemore stuff for her den return home...

goin back AI v soon... after i off the com... haha... long time nvr go back liao... today acheivement day so go back lo... go back the familiar co room... =D hang arnd in sch... c teachers... ohya... dunno how i'm goin to face my ms ng... i'm her ex-chem rep... n i failed to get A for my A level chem... =(

tml goin lunch wif sec sch friends... den goin meet jc cls... bz day tml!!! sorry jinyu nt goin ur house... my free days r numbered... i should enjoy more... haha...

梁静茹-我还记得
专集:丝路

十年后的今天遇见你
年少轻狂已远去
成熟稳重也保持距离
沉默褃千言万语

时光回到那年夏天
公车站前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你好吗
一句问候填满青春
别人的话都听不见
岁月凝结在你的视线

我还记得那年倾盘大雨
狼狈奔跑穿越几条街
握紧的双手
为爱的不顾一切

我还记得那年你的声音
耳边回荡那一句誓言
你吻我的脸
都是我心中
收藏一生的快乐

渐渐我们都有新朋友
多久不再并肩走
忙忙碌碌看人生匆匆
忘记了年轻的梦

好想回到那年夏天
教室门前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你别哭
考坏一次不是末日
未来还有很长的路
我们要一起去看世界

我还记得那年晴空万褃
那一道飞机云的弧线
蜿蜒著思念
写下故事的总结
我还记得那年你的年轻
刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命褃
你不曾告别
不曾走远

与你重逢前一个夜晚
往事在梦中上演
终要去体验
真实人生的残缺

b4 i go... happy birthday to everyone whoz bd haf gone past or r comin... hehe... alot... like jiaying jinyu annette yanhao angie xianfeng etc... haha... alot... okie la... i gtg liao... sayonara...

2008-03-29T16:36:00.003+08:00

i'm super duper free now!!! =D
haha... yesterday my last day of work...
so i'll haf 11days of freedom left... excludin today...
so...
hint hint...
i'm v free...
so...
ask me out!!!
haha... i siao liao...
oh ps i nt goin ice skate today... still feelin a little tired from the drugs...
n tml goin sweep tomb... so these 2 days is rest days... hehe...
from mon onwards... ASK ME OUT!!!
dun too far la... as long as interest me n nt too inconvenient for me i'll go...
hmmm.... gotta get army specs... i dunno wat else to get!!!
tml check again bah... den make a list of stuf to buy...

ohya... i was restin @ home on tue n wed... didnt go 4 work... stupid cough lo...
1thing is i kp coughin @ nite so didnt really slpt those few days...
another thing is coz of the medicine... make me zzz oso...
btw i only went doc on tue mornin... hehe...
only went back on thu... the 2nd last day...

last day didnt really feel anything la... just another day lo...
hmm... though i stick to my plan n didnt go out lunch wif my collegues...
i still felt abit sad when i left...
i tried my best nt to be emotionally attached to them le...
but 3months nan mian will feel abit la...
blehx... actually kinda used to it le la...
ppl come... pass by n leave...
in my short 18+yrs alot ppl done tt le...
well... i dun really mind...
to a virgo... quality comes before numbers...
as long as i haf a few v close friends can le...
i'll b contented wif even 1... =D
so...
byebye BOC... sayonara...

ah... i only applied for NUS... dun wanna waste money apply NTU...
hmm... i didnt tink it would b tt fast...
n i already paid le... haha...
dun need send anything else oso le...
coz i nvr put the discretionary thingy...
waste of time la... haha... ttz for 10% intake only...
i feel my stuffs oso nt strong enuff...
so dun wanna put...
i dun like those ppl who like go do volunteer work 1 month just to help add credit to their application...
so FAKE...
eee...
haha... so hopefully i'll get in bah...
out of 8 choice i only put 4...
v kiasu le lo...
wanted put 2 only...
budden tink v empty put 2 more... lol...
1-chem eng
2-mech eng
3-civil eng
4-MSE
finally decided to do chem eng...
welll civil i wanted long time ago so just fill some space on 3rd choice...
MSE kinda interest me so put 4th... haha...
the last 2 for fun only... =D

n i tot through over the last few days le...
happiness is a choice... n i choose to b happy...
=D
the cough kinda help me la... haha...
but i'll still continue listen emo songs coz itz nice... i'll only emo wif the song...
purely wif the song only... nth else... wont let the songs affect my real mood... =D
so for the last chance to c me wif so much hair...
pls book me in advance... lol...
take photo or sth for memory sake...
bookings for when i go botak will commence after 10th april... lol...
den u can ask me out again... for photo takin oso... haha...
so now i'll waitz... =D
hope for a gd response!!!

2008-03-24T21:06:00.003+08:00

my terrible cough wont go away...

sorry to everyone affected by my constant coughin... i'm affected too... sorry to my family... sorry to my collegues... sorry to my friends...

family u noe la... @ home kp coughin... @ nite oso cough... i take abt 2 hrs to get to slp last nite... crap... itz really very difficult... the whole chest...

collegues bcoz @ work i oso cough... haha... dam irritatin... the person beside me kp askin me go home... i tot of doin so oso... budden in the end nvr... ohya... juz now lunch i dunno ate wat... was @ this shop sellin thai food... den the person noe i coughin... kindly offered warm water... =D den brought drugs from thailand... i mean medicine... haha... i dun wanna eat de... like dunno watz in it... later eat le die how... budden she stand beside me kp pressurin me to eat lo... duh...

n to my friends coz last fri went stayover @ mich's house!!! haha... ate fried stuff which sped up the rate of coughin for me... haha... end up disturbin everyone @ nite... i mean almost everyone... some ppl slp like logs... dun even bother abt me... i slpin wif the pa di bear... den kena snatched away... nvm... i hug my jacket... den kena pushed all the way to the side... damn... wateva... i'm nt angry... i'm juz disappointed... went to work early in the mornin nvr eat breakfast... carried alot stuffs... so drank alot milo in the office oso... haha...

歌曲：失忆
歌手：梁静茹专辑：亲亲

书桌上的香水
你沉默的背对
只剩下那一点点
还是闻得到从前

西装里的口袋
我整理过的爱
又破了那一点点
我帮你补了誓言

从没实现的摇滚梦
我也陪你走好多遍
断弦的吉他
始终弹不出我要的答案

我和你拼了好几夜
约翰蓝侬的图片
却拼不到一个永远
我在等你喊停

感觉不到从前温柔的双眼
感觉的到你已不再眷恋
无奈的笑试图让我知道
得了失忆可能对你我都好

感觉不到说是为了我改变
感觉的到承诺划过我左脸
我不知道也许我会得到
一句还是朋友
这是借口还是尽头

歌曲：解脱
歌手：张惠妹专辑：灵感

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样
又何苦再想
伤若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走 (i just need some time to find a new direction...)
这世界辽阔我总会实现一个梦

想像结局一样
又何苦再想
伤若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

2008-03-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

i dun understand...
is my worst fears comin true?
afraid...
it seems like i haf no one else to tok to le...
watashi wa hitori desu...

2008-03-19T20:17:00.003+08:00

dunno how to start...

ever heard of CO2 poisonin? haha... CO2 can really kill de... if i stay in the smoke too long tt is...

but no la... i didnt get overdose of CO2... juz enuff to gimme headache for past few days... now no more headache le... but the cough still v bad... okie... got improvement over the days but still quite bad... add the stupid block nose... both holes r blocked for the past few days lo... sometimes 1 open... but the other will b closed... haben breath usin both holes for quite sometime le... @ least sometimes still haf 1 hole... coz when both holes r blocked... i'll haf to breath usin my mouth... n when i cough @ this unfortunate time... i'll experience a short temp suffocation... itz nt fun @ all lo... pretty bad these days... but i'm pullin through... feelin so tired these few daes mayb coz of the drop in the intake of oxygen... zzz... hope can recover fully faster bah... v xinku de...

oh surprisinly i still manage to give up my seat on the train even though i could haf closed my eyes n slp... really tired n i could make gd use of the slp... budden itz more enjoyable to help other ppl... like the old n mums or mums to be... haha... today more happy... coz i gave up my seat to a old man... den after awhile, got someone tap my back... this old auntie tryin to tell me the seat beside her is empty liao... =D v kind gesture... singapore can make do wif more of these ppl... =D but i didnt accept the offer la... i stand le jiu stand all the way lo... later got another person come i gotta stand again so ma fan... haha... hao xin you hao bao... i believe i'll need it in the future... coz my leg prob comin back @ me again... =( y?

next wk last wk le... 3 wks left... haben prepare anything yet... haben register yet... @ least i've narrowed down to my 1st 2 choice le... 3rd choice shall b civil... battle for 1st shall be between chemical n mechanical... hope the fight will end soon... haha... i love both... but which one should i choose? chem is nice but i only got a pathetic B for it... =( ah... haha... at least i got to choose... n i'm glad i can choose... finally... after so many restricted years of studyin useless stuff... now is the time to finally learn... =D

i shall take the step back for the time bein... i finally understand the meanin of the song jie shou... yeah... itz useless now... i haf the emo word tagged to me le... haf to shake it off b4 i make anyone else arnd me sad... timin isnt helpin either... i want u to be happy... but i cant do tt now... or anytime soon... ns comin really soon... hopefully i can make it through... 2yrs will pass v soon... A levels 4 u... focus on it k? believe in urself... tell urself u can do it... coz i believe u can... jiayou... anything can happen... we may lose contact totally... which i dun want... u may find someone else... someone better... i dun wish to... i dun want... but i'll b happy for u... hopefully... by takin this step back... we can get to noe each other again... start afresh... to love like one's nt been hurt b4... i believe... i can do it... u can do it... we can do it... we're still friends now rite? if u haf any probs hopefully i'll b ur listenin ear... hope u can b mine too... will u? dun worry... i wont go far... i'll b hangin arnd nearby... on duty 24/7... be available whenever u need me... =D Love you my dear friend...

歌曲：当你
歌手：王心凌

如果有一天我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说却害怕都说错
还喜欢你知不知道

如果有一天梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天我们都发觉
原来什么都可以
无论是否还会停留在这里

也许可是让我想得太多
也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇
就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好

啦～啦～
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
啦～啦～

歌曲：101
歌手：梁静茹专辑：崇拜

就算失败了一百遍
不管剩下多少时间
最遥远的距离
就是当我说放弃
即使幸福已经很近

不需要安慰的字句
就算需要很多运气
我永远不放弃
拥有幸福的权利
等你愿意我就愿意

就在第一百零一遍
当我慢慢睁开眼
喔也许你就会出现
失败了一百零一遍
也要不断的许愿
神啊再给我些时间

每一遍都是新的体验
一转眼又跨了一年
昨天的每一天
都是为了要让自己
到明天更勇敢一点

就在第一百零一遍
当我慢慢睁开眼
喔也许你就会出现
要在第一百零一遍
和你再爬高一点
这世界最高的花园

就在第一百零一遍
当我慢慢睁开眼
喔也许你就会出现
要在第一百零一遍
和你再爬高一点
这世界最高的花园

就在第一百零一遍
一定要一起看见
全世界最美的画面
就在第一百零一遍
我们要一起看见
这世界最高的花园
神啊再给我些时间

2008-03-15T22:19:00.003+08:00

i'm back from chalet(sick)!!!
haha...

super eratic weather...

was suppose to collect angie's mum card from angie on wed...
den pass to jack durin lunch...
budden couldnt make it durin mornin... so end up i'll haf to go check in la...
so i took whole thu off.. end up the card wif sarah... =.="
budden in the end it end up wif me again... lol...

went hek hse 1st... only me n hek... lol...
wasnt rainin @ yishun so i didnt bring umbrella along...
budden when i wanna board the bus it started rainin...
became a downpour when i reach hek hse there de bus stop...
umbrellas r nt v useful in those kinda situation...
so kena drenched abit la...
waited @ hek hse for rain to minimise...
n off we go to pasir ris... haha...
i oso dunno wat thing to settle so nt much of a help there... lol...
like therez no list of stuff needa bring etc... so cant help much oso...

met pc den went makan... b4 goin off to chalet... (finally)
itz arnd 4 when we reach... haha...
the three of us juz rotted there lo...
den jeremy came...
n arnd 5 we went white sands makan... as well as meet mich...
played arcade awhile...
meet sarah... meet wilson...
den went back chalet... (hope didnt miss out anyone...)
slowly more n more ppl came... no mahjong coz by the time we return the rental shop close le... =.="
so 1st nite rotted wif paper mahjong bridgin etc...
as well as movies... the wardrobe is a nice n cosy place to lie in lo...
watch movies in it... haha... budden haf to move house coz the gals attacked my prefered home... =(
slpt in my slpin bag... v near aaron...
budden i couldnt slp much... kuku aaron kp pullin my hair...
n he snore is like surround sound when paired wif jeremy...
though i did fell aslp... i was woken up twice by aaron...
coz he hit my head... in his slp... =.="
his hand juz swing n hit me in my head lo... kuku...
kept turnin n tossin n flippin but really cant slp(wif aaron)...
end up i move position... change wif jh... haha...
slp a little bit only... coz itz like alot ppl oso snore... cant slp wif so much noise...
most prob coz of the air con bah... den make ppl block nose...
wil jh n a few more snored... haha...
i v sian so started tryin to record their snores...
tried to record wil's but kuku jack wake him b4 i could record...
ended up wif hek's only...
v sian so play other ppl's psp...
den go reception there sit sit...
b4 finally goin for breakfast @ mac...
which is after aaron wake up coz he blockin the door by slpin there...

went back mahjong session... n lunch @ subway... (my cookies still on my table!!! i havin runny nose fever sorethroat should i still eat all 3 of my double choc chip cookies?)
den itz cyclin session!!! yeah... my cls those dunno how to cycle de made gr8 progress le... like jack cyclin so freely liao... pc just needs more confidence n go faster... haha...
from the chalet we started cyclin to bedok reservior park...
the weather super hot... (mayb reason of sickness)
took double bike coz sarah lazy cycle... lol...
reach bedok reservior park den found out there got activity... tink should b inter sch cross country... sec sch de... cycled pass a bunch of AISS ppl said HI to them... lol... the pe tee so prominent!!! ok... to me la...
rest awhile den jiu return liao... on the way kena injury...
coz while pushin the bike down the bridge tiat call me... i reach for basket, forgettin is double bike... den lose control kena my ankle there... lose abit skin only la... startin is no pain de... den slowly it'll get itchy den i feel like scratchin it... haha... when in contact wif water den will got this burnin pain...

as usual itz me startin the fire for the bbq... hmm... if my cls play survivor who will win... lol... i got tink of it b4... timed wrongly... i wanna build the fire juz nice when hek return can start...
yeah... @ least got tricia pei me... if nt only me buildin fire outside... the others all playin or slpin or watchin inside wif air con... no one else offered help lo... win le...
this time round the fire ezier to start... coz the charcoal all bigger... haha...
quite fun de la... can play wif fire... haha...
lucky nt me alone outside... if nt u c other units ppl all outside helpin out... den this unit how come 1person only...
waitz for hek but he took a long time...
so ask the ppl inside start cookin 1st lo...
surprise... no one moved... n i forgot all abt the food in the fridge... nt defrosted yet... shit... shouldnt haf expected ppl inside to take initiative... there r only there to wait to be fed... =(
win le lo... so the food all took longer den expected... dun even haf the tools for cookin... =.="
help wif cookin... u can c ppl comin out take one whole big plate of food back in the EAT while playin...
we couldnt really eat wat we cooked though we are hungry... coz no one else will cook le... n oso we cant eat those just cooked super hot de food... must put aside cool a little bit but by the time it cools itz already in those ppl's stomach le...
pls dun ever complain abt burnt food when one doesnt even help in any part of the bbq process @ all...
breath in ALOT of CO2 which mayb is the cause of my sorethroat now... make me dizzy for awhile oso...
n my eye oso kena smoked twice... experienced the feelin of bein blind for more than a few minutes... while ppl r still eatin n playin...
got a plate of food intended to share wif the fellow cookers n sat down watchin the sky while slowly eatin... budden the plate of food oso gone v fast... got a few hungry house came out of their airconditioned place to steal food...

cut cake etc den a few ppl left... n some went movie... wanted go beach de... but hek wanna bath... so waited for him to bath... n us to bath... one by one... n played mahjong... couldnt stop so end up didnt go beach... haha...
dunno wat i did but i rotted till arnd 4 den slp... arnd 6 jiu wake up le... wif my super numb hand... went swimmin pool there sit awhile... v sian... so went to the beach instead... already miss the sunrise coz late le... but the sky still v nice... now itz my dp... =D as well as the wall paper for my hp... i love it!!!=D
the sea breezin session is v enjoyable even though itz cold out there n i got runny nose some more... haha... nice watchin nature... nice listenin nature... nice just to stop the usual life n enjoy nature...
went back ppl still slpin... v comfortably somemore... gr8 lo...wanna eat sth just to fill my empty stomach... budden oso no appetide... haha... mayb coz sick bah... they took a very long time to get up pack up n leave... n it takes a phonecall from the reception to chase us out... coz ppl r still dilly dallyin... wateva lo...

bus 39 v fast reach home!!! i reach home in abt 30 mins... slpt on the bus... hmm... alone la... no more yishunian... v soon i'll take 39 more regularly le... haha... should b alone oso bah...
hopefully my sickness will go off soon!!! sore throat runny nose fever etc... coz comin mon tue sure alot cheques!!! haha... 2 wks of work left... time flies... n i'm tired... goin drink milk n slp soon le... zzz... bein sick may b a gd thing...

接受Jie Shou(Accept)
作詞：阿管　作曲：林毅心　編曲：Mool/Yugi

彷彿上一分鐘　你還陪在我左右　
Fang fu shang yi fen zhong / Ni hai pei zai wo zuo you
(It is like you were still with me the minute before.)
還以為我們會開花結果
Hai yi wei wo men hui kai hua jie guo
(I thought we’ll have a good ending.)
我還記得玫瑰色天空　卻模糊了我們的臉孔　
Wo hai ji de mei gui se tian kong / Que mo hu le wo men de lian kong
(I still remember the rose-color sky, yet our faces are so vague.)
哼過的歌到底是什麼內容
Heng guo de ge dao di shi shen me nei rong
(What is the content of the song that we hmphed?)

＊彷彿已經自由　下一刻我變成風　
Fang fu yi jing zi you / Xia yi ke wo bian cheng feng
吹過你的領空　差點失控
Chui guo ni de ling kong / Cha dian shi kong
(It’s as if I’m free. The next moment I’ll become the wind, almost lose my control when I pass above you.)　
回憶在夜裡鬧得很兇　我想我可以明白你所有的痛
Hui yi zai ye li nao de hen xiong / Wo xiang wo ke yi ming bai ni suo you de tong
(The memories are arousing at night. I think I can understand all your pain.)　
想讓你知道我懂　卻擔心言不由衷
Xiang rang ni zhi dao wo dong / Que dan xin yan bu you zhong
(I want to tell you that I understand, but I’m afraid that I don’t really mean it.)

＃我們都接受　一定是彼此不夠成熟　
Wo men dou jie shou / Yi ding shi bi ci bu gou cheng shou
(We both accept it. It must be that we are not mature enough.)
在愛情裡分不了輕重
Zai ai qing li fen bu liao qing zhong
(In a love relationship we can’t determine which is important and which is not.)　
誠實得過了頭　不能退後也無法向前走
Cheng shi de guo le tou / Bu neng tui hou ye wu fa xiang qian zou
(Honesty has passed the line, we can neither retreat or advance.)　
愛是一個自私的念頭　把寂寞消除的理由
Ai shi yi ge zi si de nian tou / Ba ji mo xiao chu de li you
(Love is a selfish though, an excuse to dismiss loneliness.)　
剩下的那些感動　能記得多久
Sheng xia de na xie gan dong / Neng ji de duo jiu
(How long can we remember the feelings of being touched that remains?)

Repeat ＊,＃

okie... itz abit funny coz itz so messy... got chi pinyin n translated version... lol... but itz the song tt matters...

2008-03-13T09:56:00.002+08:00

手放開 - 李聖傑
曲︰方文良詞︰十方編︰安棟

我把自己關起來　只留下一個陽台
每當天黑推開城門　對著夜幕發呆
看著往事　一幕一幕
再次演出你我的愛

我把電視機打開　聽著別人的對白
也許那些故事　可以給我一個交代
你要的愛　我學不來
眼睜睜看情變壞　人怔怔看情感慨

＊不能給你未來　我還你現在
安靜結束也是另一種對待
當眼淚流下來　傷已超載
分開也是另一種明白

＃〔我給你〕最後的疼愛　是手放開
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋

＋最後的疼愛　是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月台　有人走有人來
我的心是一個站牌　寫著等待

重唱　＊,＃,＋,＃,＋

我把收音機打開　聽著別人的失敗
哽咽的聲音彷彿訴說著相同悲哀
你的依賴　還在胸懷
我無法輕易推開　我無法隨便走開
感情中專心的人容易被傷害

is lettin go tt tough? kind of...
hope next 2 years will make me a better man...
wait for me...

next 2-3 days will b spent tinkin... durin chalet...
ttz my wet wether prog...
hope there'll b lotsa friends arnd me to gimme warmth...
ya... i'm afraid...
physically n mentally cold le...
stupid weather... make me cold 4eva...
i need warmth... my knee is painin again...
i got quite a deep paper cut which finally doesnt hurt when in contact with H2O...
watz wrong wif me?
gimme warmth... i'm scared...
i dun wanna b alone...
i dun want...
=(

害怕
作曲:林俊傑主唱:林俊傑填詞:李瑞洵

WU~~ WO~~

我突然覺得有點怕　愛跟生活的一切
你以為我知道怎麼拆開　我們的想法和落差

＊我的愛　是說停不能停　
已經濃的不能說是曾經　
也可說成我是錯的　愛未曾變成真的　
也沒談到多少你需要的愛

＃我不再　去執著我是誰　
或是我在夜裡掉的眼淚　
也可說我看不開的　為你我能做的　　
竟還沒讓你相信是愛情　左右你我

而哭泣都是因為愛　別逼自己不掉淚
這網裏不只是有你　這網裏我也撐著　拼了命的守著

Repeat ＊,＃　＊,＃

2008-03-08T21:27:00.004+08:00

WAH!!! i wanna put photos of aaron here... (wif his spastic face) budden dunno y got some prob... cant put... haha... too bad for those who didnt c his elastic face b4... next time let u c personally!!! lol... ohya... those photos r taken when he opened the prezzie i give him... wat a cute prezzie!!! =D

ohya... tt day give him prezzie... ate @ china square... was drizzlin... den i walk walk... got human jam in front... i dunno y la... coz usin hp... so just follow the crowd... end up q-in up unknowninly n got a china square mug free... lol... but heavy so put in the plastic bag let aaron take 1st... end up forget take... lol...

i took yesterday off... coz goin back sch take A level results!!! should haf taken half-day... v sian... wanted wake up late... budden the latetest i can manage is 830 like tt jiu wake up le... tried to slp but couldnt... =.=" i early waker bo bian lo... nt like aaron tt pig... v sian... go read newspaper jiu nth do le... so much time so tidy up my area abit... it is still v messy la... lol... den jiu go sch arnd noon... erm... afternoon i mean... hehe... ate lunch there den went up for the principal's talk... anticipatin some lame stuff from quek quek but he disappointed me... v borin tok la!! haha... ny did alrite bahz... nt as fantastic as hwa chong or raffles or national etc... but still okie... above national average... =D

after the v sian session we went down outside lt4 get our results slip... mind u... is results slip only... nt the cert... helped packed the bags of stuff for everyone... as expected la... got gd got bad... well... got c some ppl cryin... got some jumpin arnd... i wanna happy oso cant... wanna sad oso difficult... i really hate the singapore education system for mouldin us into this kind of kiasu, kiasi ppl... hey... yes... i agree tt havin a gd A level cert will help smoothen the most common road most r takin... ALOT ppl haf taken this route... till it seems like this is the only road to success... but no... wat exactly is success? c the no. of graduates out there who r jobless now? so wat if u r a graduate? it means nth... wat is more impt is URSELF... u determine ur own future... there are many lesser known routes one can take... yes... the route may nt be as smooth... wif bumps here n there... but if u want... u can still reach the end de... results r only stats... certs r only paper... Alot ppl haf both... wat makes the diff is urself... just work hard in the future n dun let this little setback destroy ur future... yes... i mean it... itz only a little setback... there is stil a long way to go in life... ur future is in ur own hands... if u decide to let this little setback affect u den gd luck to u lkin for hope... u mould ur own future... as i always said... if u believe u can, U CAN... anw i dun believe we should study for the sake of studyin... learnin should b fun... i dun like moe... zzz... okie... so wat i wanna say is cheers n jiayou for ur future... ur future is in ur own hands... u decide ur future... =D

mj... sorry for late reply last nite... was tinkin of how to reply... so replied slower... dun worry too much k? cheer up... i'm always arnd if u need me... =D

okie... for others who r itchin to noe my results... such as my seniors... haha... okie.. here it goes...
maths-A phy-A chem-B gp-B econs-B chi-B pw-C
i dunno wat ur reactions will be la... but for me i'm half happy half sad... sorry i'm a virgo la... happy bcoz of the unexpected results for gp n chem... i've been getin borderline passes in this 2 subjects forever... so when i got the results slip i was wonderin where the gp n econs grade really r... kinda shocked la... den feel happy after tt... den c chem... haiz... i knew there'll b @ least one casualty since i didnt get mentioned in the "top students"... didnt want any of it to kena... but sadly it has to be chem... y? haiz... let myself down... i used to top chem de lo.. i oso dunno wat happened... =( let the teachers down... ms ng, mdm jo, mr lee... so sorry... wah.. dun dare to face mr lee la... he walk pass i cover face... den ask if he gone le mah no one ans me... i lk up he infront of me... so paiseh la... =( haiz... saddenin coz i am like one of those expected to produce min 3 As de ppl... always like tt... didnt meet expectations... haiz... oso sad bcoz of tt C... n oso so many Bs... how close are those Bs to As... argh... sorry i'm a virgo...

okie... i haf to b zhi zhu... yes... i am happy to haf achieved decent results without makin full effort... i tink this is arnd 60-70% bah... i'm glad enuff itz nt worst le... partly bcoz i really lost interest in bein forced to study le... yup... B is nt bad le... =D

after tt rotted in sch... den went home kp tt big bag of super heavy stuff... b4 went out for outin wif sec sch friends!!! went PS ajisen... lol... the waiter bring the food i said arigato gozaimasu to him he just stunned there for abt 2 secs!!! hey... jap food leh... haha... v funny la... after tt went party world till abt 2am... den fred's dad fetch us home!!! thanks... even though there is the night rider service... we totally forget abt it till one of the bus drove pass n it goes back to yishun... =.=" and got one pass by serangoon... but iggy already left in a cab le... oops... fret nt... in 2 wks time we can haf our driver liao... dun need worry abt transport... lol... jiayou fred!!! we lk forward to tt day... haha... had fun... n i reached home near 3am... "ling chen 3am" haha... today wake up arnd 8am... win le... haha...

chalet comin up next wk!!! hope weather will b kind on us... pls dun rain... hope will b fun!!! yeah...

ohya... b4 i forget n leave... i love page 60 of the college annual '07... =D i got my v own photo on tt page!!! lol... n such a coincidence... =D

NS drawin nearer le... n i haben train... ah!!! lousy timin la the date... 10/4 make me miss so much stuff... got synergy... got NY got talent... got mayday, david tao's concert!!! wah... all happenin like v soon after i enter la... wat de... but nvm... ns will b fun too!! hahaz... cheers ppl...

2008-03-03T20:25:00.005+08:00

look at the amount of work!!! usually it's about 3-4 batches only... but today reach 9... haha... but still complete quite easily... but it's the post cheque clearance which is really very "chi li"... i complete most of it just in time to go home... still left some for tomorrow mornin... that's what i want... work everyday... instead of sitting in the office chair watching my waistline increase everyday... =.=" haha...

and if u still happen to not know about this man... which i feel is truely unbelievable... please help lookout for him... like most singaporeans... when i heard the news of his escape... i was not worried at all... totally... felt that his escape is an act of complacency on the guards' part... and he'll be caught n put back very soon... mayb the next morning when i wake up he'll be captured already... but that's not to be... it's been quite a few days since his escape but he is not caught yet... getting worried with each passing day... reminds me of the plot to bomb yishun mrt station a few years back... scary... some of you will know how close i live to the station... not only me... it also concerns my dearest family as well as friends... i don't dare to imagine what would have happened if it really happens... and of cause i don't wish it will happen at all... really scary... and on saturday night i read on 'wan bao' that he may have been spotted in toa payoh... really worried... really... hope that sighting is not the real him... as i'm typing this i'm having goosebumps... not sure if it's because of this or the cold weather... scary...

okie... don't think too much about this... cross fingers hope he'll be caught soon... look at funny stuff for a lighter mood... like the picture below... read the words... typical aaron... haha...

oh... just in case i won't be around here on wednesday... i wish aaron Happy Birthday from my blog!!! =D 2 days earlier... hehe... my "laopo" will be older than me liao... "jie di lian" lol...

and another important news... "The results of the 2007 Singapore-Cambridge GCE Advanced Level Examination will be released on Friday, 7 March 2008"... yeah... as expected... first week of march... really don't understand all the speculations of the date of release... haha... almost everyone are worrying too much about the results... which i don't understand why there is a need to do so... our fates are sealed... no amount of worrying can change the results... so why stress yourself out? yes... i do worry about mine too... but there is really not a need to worry so much... at most retake... or don't further studies... this is not the only route one can take... and this route is not 100% safe too... there are alot other routes one can take... yes it might be more dangerous as it is less travelled... but the experience will be greater!! yeah... so just don't worry so much... though i must agree that singapore is a very results based country which is something i don't really like... constrict our brains too much le... take the fun out of learning... yeah... so i'm lookin forward to coming friday... =D i know i won't do as well as i want to... as well as expected to... but that's life... it's not perfect... so... i don't wish to see teary faces on friday... cheer up people... another stage of our life is going to be over soon... time doesn't stop for us... although it can be stopped... =D time is relative to speed... time is not fixed... in case you don't know... that's the fun of learning!!! watch more documentaries!!! haha...

and here is the link to the press release if you don't believe this friday is the release of results... http://www.moe.gov.sg/press/2008/pr20080303.htm

2008-02-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

歌曲：第二次爱上你
歌手：energy 专辑：come on
词:易家扬曲:lee jung-hoon

是作梦吧
我不知不觉回到熟悉的地方
是想念
才会让我必上眼睛就看到你在那里啊
你的声音在好远好远的地方
我说不出话
是怎黱了
感觉不见了
怎黱了
你怎黱消失了
找留不到你
脑海里只下半首歌的旋律
do you understand...

时间呀你听见我了吗
滴答声中我又想起你
回亿阿醒了吗
我只想问一个问题你好吗

爱的记亿会像铁盒一样生锈吗
就算思念旧的可以也别丢掉他

想念啊你听见我了吗
可能吗第二次让我爱上你
飞走的往事呀请你转个弯
我爱你的时光你没忘了吧
我再也不会让你哭了呀
你听见吗
(i love you)

可能吧是我的眼泪吗
这是第几次又想起你
明天呢再说吧
爱情加上一个也许也不怕

爱的记亿会像铁盒一样生锈吗
就算思念旧的可以也别丢掉他

想念啊你听见我了吗
可能吗第二次让我爱上你
飞走的往事呀请你转个弯
我爱你的时光你没忘了吧
我再也不会让你哭了呀
你听见吗
(i love you)

你爱不爱我是未知数
剪下你给我的回忆走我走的路

2008-02-25T20:03:00.002+08:00

ah... i'm feelin tired again...
both mentally n physically...

due to my laziness to exercise regularly (depended too much on P.E lessons which i love so much), i'm feelin super duper tired n achin all over my body today after bbl n soccer session yesterday... haha... oso bcoz of my slight illness bah... which is most likely due to the office environment which i hate... shoot a few hoops den went play street soccer... i tink i haben clock 5mins i die liao... haha... had a little difficulty breathin coz of my runny nose... so rested alot... play under the hot sun make me feel a little giddy... couldnt concentrate so played kinda crappy... heart beat v fast oso dun dare to run too much... kinda scary... y i torturin myself? guess i must really start trainin if nt i couldnt last even 1 day in NS... haha... used to be quite confident abt goin NS but now kinda afraid due to my physical condition... =( ohya... n i kuku still go play mahjong under this condition... end up lose money... =( luckily my last last wk earnin cover this wk's lost... i will win back someday... when i in better condition...

mentally tired bcoz of all the turbulance @ home... yesterday hit another new high... been takin it in all this while... sufferin quietly... i dun wish to care (i dun haf the power to care anw) but itz nt helpin... wanna shut it all out but itz too close... itz affectin me alot since dunno when le... but i cant do anything abt it... tired of it... thanks for lendin me a listenin ear, or should i say readin eye... haha... feel better le... if there's anything i can do for u pls let me noe... (lkin forward to end of march...)

i tink i go rest le bah... really achin all over the body... dun feel like doin anything... zzz...

2008-02-22T20:41:00.002+08:00

i love my job but i hate it too!!!
okie... alot ppl is goin to envy me if i say this...
but i'm still gonna say it.... haha...

i've been slackin in the office from arnd 3 for the past 2 days...
haha... started handlin all the cheque clearance stuff by myself from this wk le... unless got too much i cant handle alone la...
from stage 1 till the last stage...
reach office after 9 in the mornin (i late almost everyday haha)...
slack arnd... clear the post dated de cheques... v few normally la... unless is near duedate...
den wait for them check some stuff b4 i write into the book...
den wait for 10... go up 14th floor take cheques...
go back start openin all the envelopes n takin out the cheques n checkin them...
castin... stampin... all by 1... den bring down to bankin hall...
n lunch time!!!
by right my lunch time is 1hr... budden i usually go out more than tt... nearer to 1.5hrs...
haha...
start key production... now i can do it really fast le... key data into the system...
dependin on the no. of cheques... i can finish v fast...
den check the post dated cheques... n make the return cheques...
n i got nth to do le...

forgot mention i've been playin songs on the com for the past few days...
haha... save MY electricity mah... i oso charge hp in the office... lol...
i dun play v loud la... juz audible to me... budden today my "boss" mc... den i play louder... haha...
hmm... although i can slack after 3 these 2 days... i got nth much to do...
stupid com of "mine" dun haf internet... or should i say i dun haf to password to access the internet... =(
so juz listen music lo... den v sian rite?
i took wat i can find on my table to start art n craft... lol...
yesterday took some paper den carve out my name b4 usin tape to paste on my com... den my collegue saw oso want... so yesterday is do art n craft la...
den today i play hp games... den read newspaper... den really v sian...
go change skin for the windows media player... den my collegues r like wat is this???
lol... funny la...
eh... i oso got try abit paper art... haha... next time got take picture den post on blog...
haiz... v sian la...

oh... now body ache... coz today super duper runny nose...
bo bian haf to take medicine... den make me so tired the whole day...
n oso make me forget wat else i wanna say liao... haha...
haiz... tml still gotta work... next sat too... tt'll make it 3 consecutive wks... zzz...
ok la... if i rem wat i wanna say den come back blog... lol...

2008-02-18T20:37:00.005+08:00

Hi from the olympic'08 mascot!!! haha...
this is taken from none other than the bankin hall of boc...
if u dunno watz boc, itz bank of china... the place i work @ now...
haha... speakin of work... haf to say i really got a v bad lead up to the wknd...
on wed... i was told tt i haf to call customers in the afternoon...
just to inform them tt their 1st 6months de interest is for outstandin balance is lesser...
=.="
itz like so random den some customer tot i sellin things hang up... den make me feel stupid juz to inform them tt den say bb... wat de... budden nvm la... got some gd customers oso... v kind... =D
it was still smooth ridin on V day... i cried on the train back home... wat de...
den come fri...

gotten used to the feelin of feelin stupid liao... was fun coz i facebookin oso... haha...

budden this customer turn come... i call her... told her liao... den she ask me some qns i dunno how to ans... so of coz i told her i'm nt v sure but i'll get customer service officer to call back to ans her queries... btw my job is nt to ans queries la... budden she like v bo song... ask me more qns... of coz i told her CS will call her... she dun give up... started sayin i need more trainin etc... kp crappin on the line for more than 10 mins... i listen oso v sian liao la... juz kp ans orh emm ahh... if nt @ work i'll juz argue back... wah... hello... i only temp staff... i dunno anything abt bankin b4 i came... but in this 1+ months i learn alot liao... but itz still v little coz my exposure nt v high... ttz y i cant ans ur qns... i noe abit abt the thing u ask budden if i ans wrongly how? isnt tt worse? i offered to get someone experienced to get back to u u oso dun want... wateva lo... wah... v pissed off la... make me feel bad n down only... haiz...

nvm... some random pics to cool myself down... anw got gd news today... i dun need to call liao... so no chance of tokin to these kuku ppl le...

me n my biao-nephew... hehe.. my fav... (wah.. my hair nt so brown le... =( )

took this photo of a photo @ my 6-yi(2)-po(2) hse... itz slightly younger than me only... coz i'm in the photo... haha... can u spot me? got a newer one taken i tink abt 6 yrs ago... budden i prefer this one... haha...

both taken durin cny... =D

haiz i still emo abit coz nvr perform this cny... actually kinda forgotten abt it le... until on sat @ work when my collegues were tokin abt their kids learnin music... den they ask me if i learnt any... haiz... so saddenin la... y they ask me... =(

itz like co take up alot of my sch life lo... even if nt wif co.. still rem sec sch needa go sembawang there de home for the aged... wif cls... needa perform rite? no co? form one ourself!! haha... tt was fun... coz i perc sect lead so i can take those instruments help create atmosphere... really fun de lo... haha...oh... jc got go another home for the aged to perform oso... ah... suddenly rem sec sch got once v pek chey... forgot is wif co or cls le... went sree narayana mission home for the aged... (is this FATE?) rem got perform n interact wif the ppl there... itz v meaninful la... budden can get emo @ times there de... oh... forgot wat i wanna sae... after tt rite i really feel like goin home... instead of goin back to sch 1st den go home... ttz bcoz i can c the home from my window... wah... haf to go back sch 1st den walk the way back to almost the same location again... =.=" budden for the purpose of bein there i dun mind la...

always walk pass the home will kinda emo de... they r really v ke lian inside to b, for some, abandoned by their child... haiz... sad society...

nono... dun emo...

tink of more happi stuff like my mum's BD!!!

hehe... went OCC or orchid country club for those who dunno... itz located in yishun...

haha... suppose to be reunion dinner la... budden juz so happen to fall in the same day... but ttz gd coz the more the merrier... but i'm juz so tired of some ppl @ home...

ohya... reach home almost 11 le... drank abit la... so a little bit slpy... budden on tv den noe duo mao mao got fish!!! omg!!! y no one tell me??? =( so sad la... catch the last less than 15mins only... v qi... den come online juz to watch the show online... haha... end up like 1sth den slp... lol...

the next day usual routine... but after read finish my newspaper i went over to fred's hse... ed saw me downstairs call me dunno how many times den i hear... lol... paiseh... i really dunno wat i tinkin... den go together... bp n qx already there... haha... den slowly more n more ppl come... played ps2 awhile... den played blackjack awhile... n when bp n qx left early (tekong!!) we started the real deal... MAHJONG!!! haha... my FREE lessons on saturdays really help... i'm the overall winner... =D can sae improve alot... from last yr la... budden i'm still nt gd enuff... sometimes decision makin nt gd... n i need to learn how to convert those alot tais de into wins... hit the max (5) quite a few time budden nvr win those max de... only got a few4 tais de... =( ps jinyu haf to pay sch fees... lol... but hope u did learn sth... i wanna learn more n improve more budden nt much time left le... goin botak soon... =(

some photos down here!!! =D

hehe... wear man utd jersey purposely de...

ps iggy u missin... haha... v diff to take usin my left hand... hehe...

hope comin wk will cont to improve... =D goin to work dunno how many consecutive saturdays le... jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

2008-02-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

梁静茹：分手快乐

我无法帮你预言委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍朋友爱得那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中

泡咖啡让你暖手想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走吹吹冷风会清醒得多
你说你不怕分手只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过

分手快乐祝你快乐你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车看透撤了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了

2 more days to valentines's... n the song juz pop up in my mind... coz of the highlighted part... happened while i was readin mypaper... lol... v true... =)

anw my 5days break over le... haha... so nt used to it goin back to work on mon... lol... n surprisingly my ulcer juz under my lip HEALED over the cny hols... haha... didnt expect it... coz i ate dunno how many kilos of bbq meat... lol... n i can say the economy really improve this yr liao... budden i oso dun really care abt tt le... tt thing isnt really impt anw... itz the same old routine again... but nt really enthu this time round... coz really dun haf the cny mood...

happy valetine's day in advance... =D jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

2008-02-06T18:46:00.001+08:00

i declare today my off day!!
haha... suppose to work... erm... "half-day"...
well decide urself... my normal wed day is 9-530...
my halfday is 9-330... do u consider a halfday?
lol... so sian la work on cny's eve...
so decided not to work...
instead went back to NY... nanyang... not new year... haha...
wah... surprise... the toilets lights r automated!!!
erm... sci block there de la... other toilets i dunno...
haha... i goin in to use... den search for switch but dunno go where le...
give up den i went in... guess wat!!
the toilet lights juz on by itself!!!
i'm like makin myself sound so stupid la...
i noe of this old technology long time ago...
budden kinda surprised to find it in sch...
haha... NY is so cool... =D N*Y*J*C!!!

walk walk... den went co room... den went hall...
as usual the programme v sian la... haha...
and alot ppl pon... n almost no one is watchin the performances... as usual... lol...
but i stayed for NYCO!!! <3
kinda dissapointin leh... standard drop... dunno y lo...
den felt v emo... dun haf cny mood this yr...
coz for the last 6yrs... i've been performin cny songs till dun need score oso can on promptu perform...
haha... like habit le... budden this yr... i'm actually watchin instead of performin...
=(
feels so diff lo... haiz... bo bian...
miss co life... miss percussion...
rem sec sch daes... got go cpcc perform...
itz like so close to the sch la... budden coz percussion instrument heavy haf to use lorry...
den every time go will sit @ the back of the lorry...
den the grp of us will play those perc instrument...
coz got gap den we can c the drivers lkin @ our direction!!!
haha... really fun lo...
now no more chance to do so le... =(
every yr without fail those cny experience will help up the festive mood for me...
now no more le... feels so empty inside...

back here... haha...
the programme finish le den i help co move stuff back...
C!!! i so gd... i'm a gd senior lo...
nt like luojun... nvr help @ all...
haha... baddie...
after tt went meet up wif the rest... lol...
tricia n yonghuan... sounds kinda pathetic bah...
bo bian... ppl either botak haben come out... if nt workin... if nt say high fever...
dunno which kuku it is la... should noe himself... haha...
den went staff room... actually outside la... den saw ms hazel for the dunno how many time...
budden the others haben tok mah... so tok lo...
den shahida walk past... jiu like tt lo...
tok tok tok...
b4 finally can enter staff room...
haha.. 1st time walk the whole staff room... =D
wanna go lk for ms lim n ms ng de...
budden they change their surname le jiu rush home lo... =(
so nvr get to c them lo...
den ambushed mr alvin tan... haha... as he describe it...
we r waitin behind him den he juz turn arnd lo... funny la...
den tink only i close to ms tan... haha...
chattin wif her while others juz stand there...
though i nvr get the hug... i got a photo!!!
lol... (ms tan... i dun tink my blog can juz take the photo like tt... i online den send u... haha... ps...)

the NY bears r so cute!!! ><

oh... btw got a few more pics..

c the person sittin in the pic? he is non other den luojun... haha...

after hek finally arrive... we went to the sliced fish bee hoon stall oppo zhonghua for lunch...
to our surprise... the stall close le... change to some kuku stall...
their menu comprise of a grand total of 3 items... namely laksa, fishball noodles, bak chow mee...
win liao lo... but we still eat la... haha... dunno where to go liao...
n i had alot fun irritatin hek today...

v sian nth to do so pei tricia go collect her salary... (ps kuku person who lose me bowlin=D) 1st time step into sml part of T3... nvr walk arnd la... blur queen tricia funny de lo... dun even noe how much her salary will b... haha... after collectin her salary... n after much discussion to the irritation of hek... finally decided to go PS... hmm... went ate kfc... den walk walk arnd... bot socks n 1pair of jeans... haha... 1st time cny spend n buy so little... den finally is back home lo...

i haf to apolagize to my readers (though not many) abt the sml fonts n diff to c colour... i'll only do tt when i'm emo-in... dun worry... i may emo once in a while... budden it'll nt b often... so u wont haf to strain ur eyes so often... hehe... sorry once again... pardon me... =D n HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ppl... lkin forward to next few days... will haf kids to play wif n take photo!!! yeah... n sat cls reunion dinner oso... =D to the botaks... dun worry i'll join the grp soon... haha... ual go in earlier but come out oso earlier... gd lo... haha... to ppl workin... jiayou worx... work hard... i noe workin life v sian... budden, ces't la vie... but try nt as hard as me... later everyday nth to do in office... n to my junior, juniors, seniors erm... those still studyin la... haha... jiayou!!! all i can say is enjoy sch life while u can... but work hard too!! u may feel tired, stressed out, or wanna give up... but dun!!! BELIEVE!!! believe in urself... if not den believe tt i believe in u... =D i'll b supportin u all the way!! jiayou jiayou jiayou!!! =D

*i wanna be happy n i am happy today=D*